law ball pics ... enjoy there will be more to come

Ryui BynnKuan Hoe & Kien


dear Amin ... was fussy about the pictures turn out though glad we took more :)

Daisy & Hui Yi
Ren Zheng
Hui Yi & Ren Zheng ( they make such a cute couple haha)
Pimping out ... JJ and shalini
Addy

lynn & carmen

us girls again

Miss Jaspal

Kai Chi

the girls of our table

from left : eujoe, pei xie, nithi, daisy, shaini, me , shamiso

from left: shalinie, shamiso, daisy, me, crystal, hui yi, kai chi, nithi

Carmen :)

patience

Just have a little patience

I'm still hurting from a love

I lost,

I'm feeling your frustration.

Any minute all the pain will stop.

The one that I can always depend.

I'll try to be strong.

Believe me,

I'm trying to move on,

It's complicated but understand me.

Cause I need time.

Yeah Cause these scars run so deep,

It's been hard,

But I have to believe in me.

these are lyrics are only part of a song ( i excluded some lines which doesnt mean anything right now ) which is patience by take that ... these lines make all the sense to me right now . i mean well i am trying to be strong on the outside but in real fact i am breaking apart from what my feelings towards him are. i mean i am trying so hard to get over the fact that he is never going to realize how much he means to me and that well i dont think i am good enough for him either cause well ... he can get prettier girls than me . ... like one of my friends said the other day ..... i am just an ordinary girl ... there is nothing which is attractive about me ... the love i have for him is considered lost cause well he is too naive to realise and i am and have been keeping it to myself... apart from a few of those who knows my situation ... the closest ones to me...you know who you are..sigh ... if only you knew and reciprocrate the same feelings ... i feel more cracks forming in my heart just because of my longing for you ...

i need to pull myself together and not think so much about it ... thinking about it is the one that brings all the different kinds of scenario to my head and its unhealthy for me . from now on i should be more giving and less self scented .. i should do things for people without thinking of benefitting for myself.

the message in church spoke today as pastor said that we are all ugly ducklings on the outside but we have Christ's DNA in us and we should let that shine instead of our worldy beings . i so really need to be independent i mean depending on the fact that i need a guy in my life is just so wrong i mean i have admitted before that this is my weakness and that it really brings me down . i need to learn to depend on Christ more rather on worldly things especially a guy to give me security . this is a fear and i need to overcome it . if i dont its just going to cause me to go more downhill which isnt good from where i am standing now. i think to some point i have backslided in my faith in comparison to last year. i admit to my sin .

thats all i have to say for now til next entry.

descriptions

i should say that this weekend had its goods and bads.

well i got to know certain people better , shamiso and daisy included then there was crystal who sat at our table for law ball. she made all the fun and we did enjoy ourselves. us girls singing away like there is no tomorrow . i loved the table i sat on. the company was brilliant and the food was alright . but the entertainment was so so i suppose some were good and some were bad. nothing much else to write about that incident since there are somethings which i dont want to talk about .by the way what i have been writting about is actually my law ball which was held last saturday. (pics will be uploaded later on )

i am going through and emotional rollercoster that is going up and down. not helping the fact that my new heels thati recently bought have broke and gave way ( although they can be fixed )

i have been thinking so much about everything thatin mind its a huge muddle that i cannot remove its making me stress. the assignment loads arent helping either with my being in charge of my sat class and well teachers are gonna give me even more reponsibilities... i need chocolate i shall go indulge in some later. i need to calm down !!! i am so stress its making me go nuts ! i need my dose of talking to him on the phone too but then ill be busy later ... sigh what to do what to do . i think i am really in something with him but i dont even know what these feelings mean . Am i obsess ? in love? clingy ? holding onto security ?

argggh i just wanna to cry ....

FREEDOM !

its official ! i can drive ! i PASSED the first time i took the test .... i CANT believe it ! ..... Without bribery.

I am so happy that I feel that I am on top of the world .

You could say God was on my side today since i was praying really hard a lot today during th course of my exam. many people were failing on the right side of the hill so i said a little prayer to God which went something like this ... dear God let me have the left side of the hill . and by God's grace He gave it to me .Although I didnt make it on the first time up the hill ( on the hill you are allowed two tries) thankfully on the second time i made it . even the instructor standing behind the JPJ gave me a thumbs up.

then after i passed the inside school exercise , i saw people from the same driving school as me and asked how was the road. one of them told me if i got car number 18 and the instructor ... it would just be a smooth ride. and so another prayer blasted from my mouth saying Dear God please let me have him as mny examiner and let me have that car. And i receive . when i heard it was that guy and it was 18 i was practically leaping for joy . then the instructor began talking to me in the car he was so funny and humuorous . when i was suppose to pull the hand brakes up while stopping at the traffic light he said nvm i do for you ...will pass you. made my life easier even

i got a 19 / 20 for my road . am really satisfied

peace

how shall i describe today

moments just passed by as if they were blur. but at the same time there was so much emotions involved today in uni. i guess someone's PMS can truly affect your own moods. especially if it was your own lecturer. i had almost missed lunch today! talks for universities i dont mind. but Nooooo... whose stupid idea was to go into class and just write attendance having ended up to stay for an hour plus more to do more assignment and let the hunger burn inside me. i am not blaming the person in our class who told us to do that cause well uni mates should support each other . But man seriously i felt so faint .

Luckily thoughts of him did pull me through to lessen my anger and to just act calmly. spent time with a girl from course today ... pretty much reminded myself of her. the usual bubly self, hyper , flirtatious in a cute way ( although i have move pretty far from that now ) . more serious , matured far off from where i have come from. felt pretty satisfied that well i do have true friends around me in my course.

life just passes so fast ... i mean now look at all my peeps around they are all grown . it s like now i can say we are finally here where we wanted to be 6 years ago. those times when you said " i wish i was 18 " and now that i am here i feel so old ... the friends you saw that were so innocent now are like drinking, smoking ... now we cant act like kids anymore cause people will be judgemental....

sigh i guess thats life

dont know how to put this lightly

can i just be straightforward ...
i mean well in life especially now i would really love to just say it out loud... just how much i care for you with all my heart and soul.

but what prevents me :
well being an asian its not ethically right for girl to ask a guy out
my family doesnt entirely apporve of him ( both in religion and character )
we are at the point in time where relationships might dissolve at some point
I never want to lose him as a friend
My heart is really afriad to get rejected and hurt again
I want my next relationship to be the right one ( at least you could say its somewhat steady)
I think he doesn't feel the same way about me ... since he treats me like a very good friend
I want him to get a sure place in University first.
Want him to be happy ... even if it doesnt involves me
Puzzled on whether his side of the family would approve of me

i really do have something more for this guy ... there is no words to describe it . pretty sure that it isnt infactuation cause i am taking into account all his faults as well. i dont know what this is !! its just turning my every limb and organ upside down and not letting it be my usual self. the emo mode has been turned on again ... constantly but what you are doing to me . You certainly dont know whatyou are putting me through

sinking love

I shouldn't love you

but I want to

I just can't turn away

I shouldn't see you

but I can't move

I can't look away

I shouldn't love you

but I want to

I just can't turn away

I shouldn't see you

but I can't move

I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine

when I'm not'

Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me

And I can't help it

I won't sit around,

I can't let him win now

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go of you

But I don't want to

I just gotta say it all

Before I go

Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you

There's so much I can't say

Do you want me to hide the feelings

And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine

when I'm not'

Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me

And I'm wondering why I've waited so long

Looking back I realize

It was always there just never spoken

I'm waiting here...been waiting here

this song just spoke the words of my mouth that i wanted to express my current mood that i am feeling. i really do wanna stop loving this guy but it seems impossible . am controlling my actions especially when i am in front of him . feelings on the other hand are hard to tame. it actually is making me going out of my mind . i dont want to say apart from that i need him badly in my life. i am hopelessly lost in love . .. save me !!

a few good memories

Memories which i cherish with all my heart and soul

Me , Ally , Jessica ( the three lalas)

My darling Ally

Yuyi & Boon Aik ( bye Boon Aik .. we will miss you when you are in Japan.. dont forget my Japanese guy when you come back XD !!)

Close friends that will last forever

With my darling again

Sushi boy XD!! & My darling

Happy Memories

So cute !! Zen & Yun Hsi

Some Party Atmosphere

Candid

Non-Candid

My darling sis ... love ya always

sigh .. sushi ... why always ruin my pic. love ya anywayz

comparison of tears

raindrops are like teardrops
they fall when needed to
its like the heavens know
what i am going through

To love someone who does not love you ,
is like shaking a tree and making the dew drops fall

although these two short versus are contradictory of each other ... yet the both make sense to me. one signifies the huge downfall of rain to emphasize it further. but the small tears that fall off a tree after a rainfall cannot be compared to the amount of rain that fell before.
i mean can it happen ... having burried my feelings long ago for this guy , chucked it to the back of my mind and left it there undisturbed to be more exact . he doesnt know that he is reviving it and causing me even more pain.... the circumstances now are just not the right timing. recent breakups ... moving to another country for further studies. moving on from where we are is so awkward i dont know where to start from on how awkward it is. no matter how hard it is for me to forget about how i felt about you ... it still remains.. it never goes away. its a constant pleasant headache. yet my heart aches . its like it was being pierced and will never be healed completely anymore. why did you come into my life to make me this way ? i wish i could just forget you completely. wish you out of my life. let me move on to new things and new people but i cant seem to because of you . you have always been there for me for my hardships and joy . we share a lot of great moments together yet you do not know what i feel . theres no one to tell since there is a lot of difference between us . family background & beliefs.

so far nothing in the department of love has gone right for me ... i dont think my heart is capable of taking another rejection. i know we arent suppose to expect it to come and always keep our hopes high waitting for that special moment. but no matter how many times i go through it my heart just wont learnt this horrible lesson . it wants to go through all these hardfeelings in the book of love.

two- faced people

my thoughts about this topic have always been on my mind and has never left it . We all are two faced at one point of our lives. think back to that one incident that you had to act sweet towards a person eventhough you hated that person to your guts. well in order to maintain sufficient peace in the surroundings you are in . at least there is that hi -bye sayings between both parties. that huge anger and rage that roars in your body but somehow you have to bury into your soul and just let these feelings dissappear. i cant say that i detest these people because me myself is guilty of this act. being genuine and vunerable plus honest just makes you a victim even more .

i think people in general now only become friends with someone only if that can benefit off the person. if you dont have anything to offer they just let you go as if you were worth nothing. they dont even search further in to get to know you better. and if you are too good in something they also have feelings of jealousy erupt out and the daggers of detest will be aimed directly at you . especially since malaysia now is becoming such a place. this society is getting to be more negative and selfish. guess you could say its just like a buisness world now in comparison to a jungle. where the predator attacks prey. a corporate jungle more likely. we all have to be on our guard all the time afraid of being attacked and torn to pieces.

you would need your "herd " to keep you together to keep you sane. people whom you can trust that will not use things against you. things that you can let out where you cant let out anywhere else. you also need one which you are closest to.. doesnt matter the gender but just someone you are really comfortable with to be able to talk about anything. to some extend yes it better if you do have a girl if you are a girl and same applies to guys. but in special circumstances if you arent comfortable with a girl then yeah doing it with the opposite sex is alright to. but since there is that narrow mindedness of this society it would probably be another factor for them to strike you down.

thoughts hard to put in words

putting yourself out there in love is a really risky thing . there is a 50-50 % chance that you will get accepted or get rejected. life is like that ... we all go through it once or maybe more in our life. you have two extreme ends of the spectrum of emotion where one side of it weighs of sorrow and rejection and on the other scale is happiness and content & love. no such thing as in "betweeness" in this situation.

on the first scale end , the person would dwell in their sorrows and can't seem to get over the fact that he/she has been rejected. it wears the person in and out. and if there isnt a proper circle of friends around to support, the person will just crumble into the pits. darker side of this out come includes anger , confusion, self- pity, impatience, hopelessness, depprivition and "emoism "....

then there is the other side where the person would be on top of the world, so full of themselves, excited, ecstasy, love, care, joy ...start of a whole new chapter where you have to share your life with that other significant half. go on dates and more gift exchange. there will be those daydreams and sighs thinking about them. loads of message exhange via the wonderful invention of technologies.

guess which pat of the device i ended on after there recent blabbers on my blog ...

take a pick ......

signing off

assignment mountain

A mountain of assignment just dropped on me this month ... I Think I am still coping really am not sure . I seem to be reading my reading list for my assignment but it still wont make sense on what I am suppose to write . not only that the question still isnt making any sense at all either. .... . Frustrations . .... . Frustrations. absolutely no mood to start them and starting them seems like the hardest thing to do right now. sometimes i wish life can be easier. but if it were easier then it would be so boring and dull. so both ways is a loose loose situation.

but on the other hand tomorrow is the day that HE will be coming down ... sigh ... cant wait ... dont know why this feelings of mine towards him still stuck on. i am so excited i can barely breathe. dont know for sure whether we will be going out tomorrow though ... it depends on whether He contacts me tomorrow . its a half half probabilities.

there is also a few decisions hanging in my closest waitting to be solved. firstly on whether I should be going to England this September. I feel the anxiety and all since I would have to adjust again which really does not tickle my fancy of doing ever again( but I guess I have to in life ) . serioulsy dont like the idea of the cold weather there. thinking about it already gives me the creeps.

the other major decision is that if He asks me to be his gf ... should I say yes ?? with the factors of long distance relationship and not being able to see each other anytime soon. because of me being in England. Will our relationship last if we start? partially I have been surviving on the fact that I am living life to the fullest at this moment and that I still love him even though I see him once a year. but placing God first in my life has allow me to learn many things about relationships . looking for the goals that God wants me to do for Him first before looking for my significant other who has the same visions. also the fact that He loves me for who I am really drives me to love him back even more.

somehow or rather my mum seems to dissaprove of him since He is from the countryside and I am a city girl . she thinks that He will not be able to cope with the city life and will not be able to take care of me. it might also be too taxing on him.

well i guess thats all I have to write for now... til next post

far

why do you have to be so far away ,

far from reach

beyond my grasp

beyond us being together

the distance

the kinsman

few of the things

that keeps us apart

thinking about times

just make me sigh

wishing for those

to repeat again

and remain ....

after all these years

you still remain in my heart

i do wonder

will this pain ever depart ...

Valentines

Happy Valentines day everyone !!

overall i did like today and enjoyed it as well as the shock for recieving a boquet of ferra roche to be more exact . ( will up load pictures another day) . wont go into the the boirng details since there wasnt really anything to talk about the guy or the "date" we went out on . got torn into being with three guys today in UNI which was a pretty fun thing i suppose having my coursemates pairing me up with so many. it was pretty amusing.







am pretty glad that i am not committed or having to face an ugly break up for now in my phase of life . freedom just taste so sweet. ( eventhough my heart lies somewhere in someone's heart)




me and my boquet for valentines .

the perfect person ??

have you ever come across someone who has fulfilled all the qualities you wanted in your second half you just wanted to scream and shout for joy in bewilderment and amazement but then before you had a chance to
you find out that he is already taken ...
another scenario would be you have come across a guy before and he fits all your qualities then you found out that his parents dont allow him to have girlfriends. but this among the two would definitely be an easier problem to solve.
thi guy turned out to be that pure gentleman that i ever wanted and he was not that noisy but yet at the same time could strike up a mature conversation with you. you could talk just about anything under the sun. he was so sensitive to my needs. he understands me. his body was definitely what i wanted in a guy and his looks were just about what i have dreamt about . i felt so protected today and he really did pamper me and flattered me a lot . never felt so appreciated and special before. i am supposing that he did have some chemistry with me cause we clicked easy enough. but sadly i would not be able to be encourage by his smiles for me everyday in university now since he has dropped out.
it sucks having to feel that way since he is already occupied with another person. he has already has another significance in his life and wouldnt be able to be yours. and for me personally it has happen twice majorly in my life. and being rejected in this way isnt a very nice feeling. since you know you have "lost" something to someone else.
sigh when is it my turn to have a happy ending for once ??

for you

I am done with wondering
wishing,
wanting ,
waitting ,
just to be with you.

No road or way
for me to tell you
but to just ponder
from the distance....

I long for your attention,
your warmth
your gentleness
&
your affection.

In secret this embrace
you will never ever know
til the day you say
those precious words of
I LOVE YOU

a new Uni year

well guys i have officially started classes in UNIVERSITY
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT I AM ALREADY IN UNIVERSITY
Time passes so fast ....
few facts that i cant believe it has happen and its happening :
1. I am now 18 and going to be 19 this year ( I feel so old )
2. I am not in Queensland anymore , without all the independence and all my friends plus memories.
3. I am in Help University Malaysia , it is barely a campus for my degree. ( Thank Goodness I will be twining over to England )
4. I have an official acceptance in to Cardiff University , Wales, it now all depends on my grades whether i can go into that Uni.
5. I am now taking driving and in a month or so will be able to drive.
6. I have so many people in Help University . Built so many old ones back and meeting old people from my past.
7. Joining a new church called Pj EFC and well trying my best to fit in
8. My resistance to spicy food has deteriorate , feel i have become soft in that sense.
9. I have decided to leave relationships in sense of bfgf wise aside for a while.
10. I have to go to University on saturdays and not wednesdays.

Latest Update

i know i havent been blogging much ever since the hols started ... mostly just putting pics up and thats that. i know i have been lazy these past few weeks. and well wanting a break from it all, but its actually barely a break cause now tomorrow i have to go back to SCHOOL ! which in these years means uni to be more exact. I cant believe that i am starting uni already. time really passes so past. i mean the year just rushed through itself. i baarely felt that i consumed the year 2007 fully.
looking back yes i have gained more friends and memories in the past year i was in Queensland , Australia, yet i cannot go back to those happy times. i have to leave and start over. Adjusting to a new place, new environment, new people.... kinda fed up with the feeling of adjusting again but i guess that is life you would always have to do it, and in my case not think too much of whats going to happen the next day. i am still sensitive as a person. Matured a lot in many people's opinion. but i still have a long way to go ...
on the 2nd of jan, i met up with a few friends. like Marie , Charis, the twins ( Serena & Samantha ) . we stayed at home for lunch then decided to make our way over to midvalley. we explored the gardens , found out movie tickets were so expensive there. then we walked around basically aimlessly around the mall. i had my craving for starbucks satisfied when i sat down to drink the ice blended toffee. it was so enriching. met up with an old friend of mine as well. Loong Wai. he well hasnt seen me in three years and in midst of those years can still hover an affection for me. i do wonder how a person can survive.... all he did was just kept in touch with me online whenever i came on msn. messged me on my phone whenever i am back in malaysia. observing all the dates that were significant in my life. that was just pure brilliance ! i am shock beyond words ! or maybe i am just too flattered that a guy can like me for so long
but this will lead to another difficult decision on whether i should give him that chance of going out with me. i feel pity for him for waititng for me so long and still waitting . but at the same time i am entering a whole new wide horizon of guys and of course new friends as well. although i will never leave the old ones behind. especially you guys ( gang ) .... treasure you guys friendship forever, dont matter the distance .
i finished the six hours driving lecture thing ... thank goodness it was so long winded i was afraid i might die halfway( sleep ) . now just waitting for my L s.
reminising of the past as usual of ole me ... guess thats all i have to write today ... til next entry

life in aussie

hey guys

this is one the times when i can update my blog since i am in another person's house to be exact jasmine and i am here cause ill be going to gold coast tomorrow .

basically life here is really great and i love it here ... i love ther friends that i meet here and well i am begining to have closer bonds with them

currently now my close guy friend is Emir and well he is totally sweet to me and all . he and i we can talk about everything and well he really looks out for me . not only that, he has concerns for me . closest girl friend would be alice since we click so well and we have so much same interest ... i am so glad to have met her . from now on we are gonna to be doing everything together. :)

now also have a new interest which is alastair but the prob is i dunno how will i get him . he is nice and all but doesnt seem to be responding to me in that way that i want . maybe i might go for emir :)


thats all for now


see ya

hey guys

just letting you guys know that my connection of internet isnt that great here . it doesnt allow me to check my blog or go on msn . it will on,ly now be occassionally when i come on here to update

sorry guys cant be helped but that is how it is going to be ...sigh i feel very sad that i cant do it anymore but well what to do ... life is life i just got to live it !!!!!!!!!

thats all i have to say

in Brisbane australia

its been two days since i have been in a new country with new ideas and new people. i should say that well brisbane is certainly nice overall. its just that well slopes are everywhere and its so tiring to be walking all over. not many shops and the town is pretty small in comparison to KL. the place where i am living of course. hmmm missing certain people already. since i spent a lot of time with some people before i left i miss those people more eventhough i dont really know them. (B).....; )... main attraction t well older guys than me. i have a huge liking for them. i miss L as well... i hope he is alright and that everything that he is doing is fine as well. but there is now a huge difference between me liking brian and me liking leon . its so confusing in a way and i hate that .

the foundation house is not what i expected it to be. quite plain and it was dusty when we first got in which isnt good. they really did cheat us on our money ... i think ill be shifting out after six months ... it totally isnt worth it .

thats all for now will update again soon .

Brian's tour of KL ( with me of course )

Here i am back again with another entry .

i am having fun with my last few days in KL . going to aussie this thursday XD can't wait and at the same time feeling slightly anxious.

Basically what i did today was bring Brian around KL.Brian is well the guy from Melbourne and its his first time here . He is also a dad's best friend from primary school's son. He is really nice. Sophisticated, intellectual, a really good person to talk to.

OK.... how it happen ? he came to my house in perfect timing at 9 when i woke up at 830 , but he was still sleepy then lol. then we had breakfast in my house which was just toasted bread and cheese spreads. then we sat in front of the tv for a while. then i decided to go change. we left the house at ten something.

we went to Mid valley first. had some chorse to do like drop off my specs for repair. then i took Brian around megamall. he bought a shirt from romp and a pair of jeans from giordano. oh and also he bought wallets for his sisters.

it was well 11 something then we decided to take off to Bank Negara to meet up with Brian's cousin who is working there( Kingston). he treated us to lunch , the cafeteria there was really nice. mee hoon was good and Brian had Hainanese chicken rice. we had a tour of the money muzium andwe had a photo taken outside . our one and only photo taken.sigh.........

then we headed to star train and took it to Hang Tuah where we walked from that station to times square. had a toilet stop there. then we immediately crossed the overhead bridge over the road to go to sungei wang. this was where we did some serious walking of four floors. very tiring . but there was a lot of stuff to see. Brian really liked the varieties... he had to cut his spending lol cause he saw i wasn't spending much and he felt embarass that he was buying so much. he bought a pair of shoes for a friend , a leather band for himself and finally posters of a girl we dont even know who. then we left sungei wang at 5 to go to KLCC . we took a cab

we immediately went to gardens where Brian could take pictures of KLCC and the gardens. he tooks some pics of me . then we went back inside and i took him toe Kinokuniya. cause that was the only place worth visiting in Klcc apart from the gardens. then i called dad to see whether he was still in the office and that he could bring us home. he was ! and so we walked to my dad's office since it was near KLCC . then yeah we had a pretty good car ride with some talk. then i pointed out buildings he should know along the way . and we even visited tian hou temple since its by my house. took a drive in and out . then back to my place.

me and Brian well we have a very good talking realtionship which i love so much . cause i never had a chance to talk this much to a guy before at such an intellectual level. SO basically i really had a great time . thanks Brian for your company i really appreciate people like you . i do wish there were more people like Brian that i could have met. ;) hope to meet up again ....

thats it for todays entry .

mixed events

this entry is more for describing what happened yesterday and today . very important and must be written down.

saturday very eventful day. woke up. prepared for the party at home and did some cooking as well and did some more grocerey shopping for my party. met isaacs mom on the way there .she sent her wishes . then went carefour i saw miss gomathi i am guessing with her husband and we said our how do you dos. then i ate aunt annies and some sushi since i was so hungry and also the day before dinner i didnt eat at all.

then i went with my mum to send my sis to piano class in damansara and went to tesco, bought a new shirt and some underwear and more food. then went straight to church. joined in worship. then went to SIB for this one man play thing done by Daviv Shepherd. he was really good in the imitation of voices and emotions. his mom really could sing and he as well. the Goliath version he did was really funny. we left early which is so sad i wanted to finish it . but i am host of my farewell so i had to be back before all my guest arrive without me there.

then we reached home and guest started pouring in . we said grace and everyone started eating . we didnt get to play the ice breaker games cause i thought people were pretty comfortable. i spent a lot of time with yun hsi and the gang. i finally got to take picture with Seh yung after so long. well didnt get to spend much time with keen wai, he had to leave at 8 something . i spent some time later in the evening with jason and zhi hao watching football. it was kinda nice catching up with jason . i felt touch with the thoughts he gave me and the affection (hugs ) . i think that will be one of stronger memories .a lot of people left early which was sad. they left at 9 which was well just when the party was getting started. bt at least some loyal people stayed until 10 something. Uncle SK and Brian only came later after the party was over. but it was really nice get to know him. i mean Brian is really nice and easy going . we share a lot of similar interest apart form me liking snake XD hehe . brian has really nice highlights :) .

today went church , Mr rudy yeoh prayed for me as i am leaving soon. loads of people came to gave me their greetings.talk to jason a bit . its great that i have a better talking relationship with him than last year. so tired in the afternoon took a nap as the day before i couldnt sleep. too excited, too many things on my mind and thinking too much . i slept at three the day before. then at 5 we went to play tennis at adrian's apartment. dinner we went with Uncle SK and Brian and an aunty and her son Kingston. we had chinese .

well going tomorrow with him on a our of KL, i am his tour guide so yeah i cant wait. i hope its loads of fun

i wonder how is he doing , havent heard from him in a while and well i hope i can still keep in touch with him until the end of the year . and i wanna see if i keep my emotions for that guy that long. we shall see .miss you loads and i send my love... take care

my farewell party photos

me and zen
me and sandra
me and sen wai
me and yun hsi
me, vicki, seong, theng

su and me
aliza and me
boon siong and me
me, theng and boon siong
seong, me and chow chow

me and Jason
kylie, me and aliza
zhi hao and me
bryan and me
me and seh yung

random pics
Keen wai and I
another randompic
Me and Michelle
me and Theng

Seong and Natalie

spending quality time

Its been two days since that :) day .
i got to spend time with my mentor( JIN AI ) which was really great as i love her to bits. Although we dont have much time as we use to, we still managed to have lunch at my place, cooked sincerely by me !!!!

i cooked lagsane and fried some chicken and decorated with broccoli. then i also made a shredded cucumber and carrot salad. then we had just tea as drink . we talked so much ... i can never stop talking to her and neither can she but we had very limited time . its so sad that she cant come for my farewell party , i really wished she could.

i guess we both understand each other very well eventhough there is a huge age gap. shes been through the same things that i am going through now so well she knows exactly what to advice me .