assignment mountain

A mountain of assignment just dropped on me this month ... I Think I am still coping really am not sure . I seem to be reading my reading list for my assignment but it still wont make sense on what I am suppose to write . not only that the question still isnt making any sense at all either. .... . Frustrations . .... . Frustrations. absolutely no mood to start them and starting them seems like the hardest thing to do right now. sometimes i wish life can be easier. but if it were easier then it would be so boring and dull. so both ways is a loose loose situation.

but on the other hand tomorrow is the day that HE will be coming down ... sigh ... cant wait ... dont know why this feelings of mine towards him still stuck on. i am so excited i can barely breathe. dont know for sure whether we will be going out tomorrow though ... it depends on whether He contacts me tomorrow . its a half half probabilities.

there is also a few decisions hanging in my closest waitting to be solved. firstly on whether I should be going to England this September. I feel the anxiety and all since I would have to adjust again which really does not tickle my fancy of doing ever again( but I guess I have to in life ) . serioulsy dont like the idea of the cold weather there. thinking about it already gives me the creeps.

the other major decision is that if He asks me to be his gf ... should I say yes ?? with the factors of long distance relationship and not being able to see each other anytime soon. because of me being in England. Will our relationship last if we start? partially I have been surviving on the fact that I am living life to the fullest at this moment and that I still love him even though I see him once a year. but placing God first in my life has allow me to learn many things about relationships . looking for the goals that God wants me to do for Him first before looking for my significant other who has the same visions. also the fact that He loves me for who I am really drives me to love him back even more.

somehow or rather my mum seems to dissaprove of him since He is from the countryside and I am a city girl . she thinks that He will not be able to cope with the city life and will not be able to take care of me. it might also be too taxing on him.

well i guess thats all I have to write for now... til next post