Finally :)

hey people !!!


i know i havent updated in a while ... just been lazy to

I FINALLY HAVE GOT WHAT I WANTED FOR SO LONG :

CONTACT LENSES

finally ........

xoxo

tagged by Tan Jia Yuan

-You-
Name : Khareeza Koh Zhi Wei
Nicknames: KK, Kota Kinabalu, Currypizza, Kariwa , Kari, Reeza, Khareez..........
Names you wished you had : well i wished i didnt have such a "malayish" name but overall am happy with it cause its unique.
What do people normally mistake your name as: plenty over the years.... mis spellings mostly like Carissa , Kariza, Karesa ......
Birthday: 14 th November 1989
Birthplace: Subang medical Center ( on the right wing )
Time of Birth : i think it was night time
Single or Taken: Single
Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

-Your Appearance-
How Tall are you : 5 ft 3
Wish you were taller : yeah i do ... cause my sis is almost same height as me and she is only 15 yrs
Eye colour: brownish
Eye colour you wanted: i am content with my eye colour
Natural Hair colour: black
Current Hair colour: i have sandy brown highlights
Short of Long hair: its at shoulder length
Ever dyed your hair a bizzare colour: nope ... have only highlighted it sandy brown twice before
Last time you did something Dramatic to your Hair: was cutting it short and dyeing it
Glasses or contacts : well i have both ( use both for different reasons )
Do you wear make up : yes i do the basic : foundation, a little eye shadow, lipgloss
Ever had hair extensions: no
Paint your nails : yes !!! its what i love to do ... i feel very proud when i have painted a good set of nails.

-In the Opposite Gender-
What colour eyes: well i dont want to be choosy but if i had to choose green :)
What colour hair :well personal preference brunettes ....
Shy or Outgoing: a mixture of both
Looks or Personality: Personality always prevails over looks but looks have to have some standard also .
Sexy or Cute: Sexy !!!
Serious or fun : a mixture of both
Older or Younger than you : 2 years younger or 10 years older XD
A turn on : hmm well when a guy does sweet little things for me , if guy's body part then fingers .....hehe.... lol
A turn off : a too egoistic person
Flowers or chocolates: both are just as well ... depends on the flowers and chocolates.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
Rap or Rock: both are alright
Relationships or one night stand: relationships
School or work : school i suppose
Love or Money: Love
Movies or Music : Can i have both ?
Country or City : a bit of both .
Sunny or Rainy days : it depends really
Friends or Family: both are important

-Have you ever -
Lied:yes
Stole something : yes
Smoked : never ever and never will
Hurt someone close to you: yes .... unfortunately
Broke someone's heart : yes i have ... a guy who liked me for four years ( i think he is still in prusuit)
Had your heart broken: yeah many times
Wondered what was wrong with you : yes definitely have
Wish you were a Prince/ Princess: i have when i was younger ..... not anymore
Liked someone who was taken : yes .. it really tore me apart
Shaved your hear : no NEVER !!
Been in Love : i guess so .... dont exactly know what it is !?!
Used Chopsticks: yes ... i am Chinese i have to use it !
Sang in the Mirror to yourself: yes i have

-Favourites-
Flowers: hydranges , lilies
Candy: this apple candy from Japan
Song : Is it you ? by Cassie
Scent: well i am wearing CK now .... but body lotion i use lavender
Colour: i have a few actually .... Green, Blue , Purple, Black , White
Movie: i have too many... generally love watching movies
Singer: if i had to choose maybe michelle branch
Word: i dont have a favourite word ... i need all words to write my poems XD
Junk Food: the Starbucks pretzels
Websites : i have too many to list
Location : hmmm well i loved brisbane ( but can't be partial cause going to England soon )
Animal: snakes, dogs

Ever cried over someone : yes
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself: my tummy fats
Do you think you are attractive : apart from the tummy fats yes
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose: pocohantas
Do you play any sports: badminton, Tennis , i go to gym mostly

-The rules-:

(1) Link to your tagger and post these rules

(2) List (8) random facts about yourself and tag ( 8) people

8 random facts :

(i) I play the piano and drums

(ii) my favourite kinds of books are crime , horror and fantasy

(iii) I am studying law

(iv) I don't like eating durians eventhough i am malaysian

(v) I am Christian and proud of being one

(vi) I am a bargain hunter when it comes to shopping

(vii) I only consider two out of six of my past relationships actual ones

(viii) I am afraid of heights

Tag:

(1) Yuyi

(2) Divya

(3) Carmen Tan

(4) Carmen Khong

(5) pei xia

(6) Gabriel

(7) Jonathan

(8) anyone else who bothers reading

thinking

hmmm so many choices to make ..


(1)Choice to study hard since there is only 80 days left before exams ( it sounds freakingly scary )
(2) choice of which university should i apply you with well parents pressure to go to Cardiff in particular
(3) choices of friends whom i can trust more than what they are
(4) choices to stop my online obsession of being on too many hours a day
(5)choice to spend more time with God
(6) choice of not to succumb to temptations and not to cross boundaries

ok ... maybe that wasnt many but they are important choices which will affect my overall being as a person .... i mean it will determine who i am as a person . don't think i want to be this perfect person or something but its just gonna determine who i am going to be .

my love life. my career. my friends. my family. my spiritual life.

they are all at stake !

peace

xoxo

ups and tumbles

hmmm ... i know i slept very well yesterday after a pretty rough week of not being able to sleep comfortably. mum woke me up this morning to go gym ... then when we were driving i forgot to put down the handbrakes ... man i am so ignorant and dumb . i burnt them obviously. then i left my clothes in the ladies changing room. ARGGGGH !!!!

man i came back feeling down all day ... terrible in fact i just wanted to curl up in a ball and just want everyone to leave me alone ... tried picking myself up but then i didnt... it just didnt work

hmm thanks to all those people who tried pulling me through today ... especially two people .. i think you know who you were

i think it was pretty obvious that i was down cause even my mum and my dad ask is there anything wrong... are you in trouble? in debt? having an affair ? .... weird lar

sometimes i just feel so alone and caught in my own world with nothing outside to look forward to

thats all
xoxo

Hyperactive day

i was really hyper today . at least during LMS the lecturer was nice and complimented me indirectly eventhough she didnt say my name. i mean i am discovering more odd things in uni like certain people i can trust or not.

went out was at Mid valley ( again !?! )..t it was a really impulsive decision cause well one of my friends who has been rejecting all my offers to go out finally decided to go watch a movie with me today and brought another guy friend along too ... watched forbidden kingdom ... i really dont recommend you watch it if you are into those traditional chinese kung fu movies cause it just destroys the idea of it ! cause well who would have thought that traditional chinese fictional characters speak english . their accent sounded really weird too ... the jokes were pretty lame also .. the whole movie I was just watching the fighthing scenes ..

a hot guy actually checked me out today ... and when i say hot he was hot !! lol a white guy which was so my taste ... man the adrenaline rush was such a great feeling it just made me on cloud nine ... probably why my hyperactivity went up even further .... besides talking to my bestie on the phone made it even better :) lol my day was just really great

i need to calm down in a good way if not ill go nuts XD lol

xoxo

tagged by Karmun

8 things I'm passionate about..

{1} spending quality time with my friends

{2} having a good conversation with someone

{3} Law ( sometimes .... it depends )

{4} Shopping

{5} music

{6} Loving my family

{7} building good relationships with people i meet

{8} MOST IMPORTANTLY bringing people to Christ !!

8 things I say or do too often...

{1} Being online

{2}Listening to music

{3} talking about my past, ( good and bad times )

{4} Shopping

{5} serious ...?

{6} gosh

{7} take care

{8} what the heck ?

8 things I've read recently

<1> Five people you meet in Heaven

<2> Tuesday with Morris

<3> Star Newspaper

<4> Judicial Precedent

<5> Archie Comics

<6> Absolute Boyfriend ( japanese Manga)

<7> The Constant Princess

<8> I kiss Dating goodbye

8 songs I could listen over and over again..

{1} Is it you? Cassie

{2} I'd rather be in love . Michelle Branch

{3} One last breath . Creed

{4} Tired of being sorry. Enrique Iglesias

{5} I remember . Keyshia Cole

{6}Yesterday. Leona Lewis

{7} Collide. Howie day

{8} Tonight. FM static

8 things I learned last year...

{1} how to cope with different kinds of housemates

{2} Living Indepedently

{3} Speak in tongues

{4} my relationship with my mum especially is important

{5} how to cope with feelings ( loneliness, craving for someone )

{6} how to take a bus ( public transport ) LOL

{7} more about myself , big confrontations which some friends told

{8}how racist some australians are

8 people to tag...

{1} Divya

{2} Yuyi

{3} Carmen Khong

{4} Carmen Tan

{5} Gabriel

{6}Jonathan Lin

{7} Wilson

{8} anyone else who is on my restrictive reading list who blogs

yesterday

I just cant believe your gone
Still waitin for mornin to come
When I see if the sun will rise, in the way that your by my side
Well we got so much in store
Tell me what is it im reaching for
When were through building memories ill hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds, or least where the story goes
I never believed untill now
I know il see you again im sure
No its not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day one more smile on your face
But they cant take yesterday
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
I thought our days would last forever
But it wasnt our destiny
Cause in my mind we had so much time, but I was so wrong
No I can believe that
I can still find the strengh in the moments we made
Im lookin back on yesterday


this beaultiful lyrics by Leona Lewis ...guess i have been thinking a lot about one significant person and thats a secret i will never tell ... don't ask me about it please cause i dont want to talk about it .. it is a really sensitive issue and i don't want to create and heated / chaos discussions about this topic... its way out of the league to be discussed. i really need to satisfy that vunerability cause if not ill be shred to pieces ... guess thats all i have to say

oxox

is it you ?

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one
I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?
I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's hardest right
And I'm looking for someone
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Want to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?
Take for grant How much I care
(How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?

this song somehow makes a lot of sense right now ... go figure

traditional thinking ?

hmmm been thinking about this subject i mean about technology progress ... why cant our thinking progress too... there is still this taboo thing about meeting people off the internet ... ( finding mates , or just friends )

Yes there is that factor that there is danger and some risks that shouldnt be taken. there is a lot of sex predators prowling over the internet. at the same time you occassionally will be lucky . in past experienced one of my boyfriends i met on the internet and we met up three times in our relationship since it was long distance . ( although it was in midst of malaysia ) . i broke up with him anywayz since he turned out to be an ego freak. somehow you will just be a different person on the internet where you can potray yourself to be better. guess thats where that feaar comes from meeting a "totally different " person

i wish asian societies arent so closed minded. i mean in the same wavelength it can be accounted for the way they talk about people too. the amount of gossips and what they find to talk about people is just ridiculous. judgemental is another factor which contributes to this behaviour as well.

there is so many issues in entering a relationship i mean like .. theres got to be status and then there is the religion factor.then racial issues ( especially in my family ) ...

something to write about

hey people who even bother to read my bloggie ,

hmmm well since one of my readers has blogged about her dreams. XD i think i shall too . well last night's dream was pretty weird. i mean well overall in real life my parents generally have a preference of race when it comes to my other half. mum always pulls me aside and says dont you dare marry him when i get closer to them as friends cause he is malay, black, white....etc.....

there is even that concern where status comes in as well as how strict the opposite parents are . even mum doesnt want me to marry one of her friend's sons ...hehe....

ok ok moving on to the dream ... i dreamt that i was in an american country at a beach .... and was with my family on some holiday ... thats not even the weird part ...i was with a guy , a white guy whom i havent seen in real life ... i am guessing it was my bf cause we were doing what couples do . and my mum , dad & sis didnt react at all ... in fact they were pretty happy with my choice . ... and for some reason they didn't care what race he was ... interesting ....

been feeling slightly fidgety lately i have no idea why ??? maybe someone can explain to me ...

oxox

weekend

hey peeps i am back with another entry !

well i guess you could say i loved my weekend especially saturday ... hung out with a bestie and we enjoyed each other's company throughly and the shopping ! it was her day to just let go and be herself and let loose all her stress with me helping out with tones of fun topics to talk and catch up as well as jokes flowing. guess we saw someone too that made me and my bestie's day .... of all people it was SATE !!! haha bestie didnt expect it and neither did he ... and it was a pretty good introduction between two people.

I LOVED how we had SOOOOO much fun !!! it was so memorable ... i think i am addicted to talking to my bestie ... was thinking about that fact all day today ... my daily dose of drug.

went to 1 U to shop cause i have never been there seriously shopping with just a girlfriend before ... there is always a first a time :) so major shopping spree from 1 to 6 . I bought a bag from Radioactive and a white shirt collar shirt for law client counselling which will be my turn this friday with my partner ( got the same partner for mooting ) .... wanted to buy shoes but then i had to resist cause ma will sure scold if i bring home another pair of shoes.

there was also a fashion show on and my bestie took some pics :)

this is the guy both me and my bestie thought looked the hottest !

well the period between mum is over and glad that everything is back to normal ... it was a little drama in our household but it has passed

i guess thats all i have to write for now ..

oxox