Tuesday, November 28, 2006

that strong feeling in you

hey ,

just felt like adding a post ... so well these few days just been feeling all weird inside me i mean like i am misisng something and i feel a twitch in my body . I need to get rid of it if i dont i dont know what ill do with it when i am in Australia man ill go wild and that is deifnitely a negative point. I have to control !!!! i have to control !!!!

i have to do sports to get rid of it if not well i am forever going to feel his way ...
i think part of the reason why i feel this way is cause my sis didnt need to do anything in camp and well all the guys are like coming after her whereas for me i interacted with them and did a lot of stuff still there doesnt seem to be a connection ... why does she get it so easy and i have to get it always the hard way ?..... i needed to let it off my chest it is really bugging me .... i cant have a decent guy come after me ... all the guys that come after me are like off the street whistling which i dont need their attention ... TECHNICALLY I DONT KNOW THEM !!!! whereas my sis has like people she knows coming after her ... i want to attract the right attention not the wrong one ..... i havent even heard from well someone decent that they actually like me( guys) ... ARRRGGGHHH!!

I dont want to go crazy ... i want to be sane ... but how .... the pressure is building ,.,,, i cant hold myself any longer ,help is what i need !!!!! i am about to breakdown !.... i want to let it go and let it fly away but it seems to be trap inside me

Friday, November 24, 2006

PDL camp

well i havent been around guys ... cause iw as at this Personal development leadership camp

first ill start with the place , we practically stayed in just one shop lot and it looks like prison there arent many windows at all .... they practically treated us like prisoners there which is well for our own good but in another way it looks really bad

well i was appointed room leader the first day ,had mei kyi, joanna, trina in my room ... they all are very nice girls and almost every night we just gossiped so much and were very talkative. then well i was also appointed study group leader.. cause we had a test on the second day and some of us failed but eventhough you passed yous till get scolded by the trainers and not lightly either very harshly ..... then for well the song i also had to be head conductor of the song and well my group's song got chosen to be sang at this camp which was cool

then we went through a lot of sessions... mostly were just talks ... which some were useful and the rest were kinda boring... bthe more interesting things about it were the ones that totally provoked you and well change you and you start to cry ... besides that girls always had to sit in between two guys since there werent many girls

this was the part i most like and i got to know more guys ... eventhough i was the oldest there ... yen sern well the sensitive guy who really touched me on how he acts towards a women really like a good gentleman although he well doesnt speak english well but we clicked i guess and interesitng to say is that well we just feel comfortable with each other...and i totally symphatize with him when he was sick and all ... poor guy ! then there is chi seng the funny and outgoing guy who is a bit like a lala guy ... but he is very helpful and very friendly and we were mostly awake in the sessions because of him then he also helped me out with tutoring people and well i encouraged him a lot during the camp also, we talked a lot.then there was yong yew he was so sweet i mean he was willing to help me coach gan when i needed someone and well he was willing also to give five bucks for the little boy's reward,then there is sexy women guy he is really sweet also and knows how to treat a lady and well he can be sick but thats what makes him very funny and likeable, divesh the very funny indian guy although quite conservative but his personality was nice and very easy to talk to also... then there was chong khin yew well he is a very amusable guy and very friendly eventhough from a far you see him to be very shy ... but he turned out to be the best chit chatter with besides chi seng... then there was ken ... he was just well friendly and i could talk to but i didnt hang with him much and didnt sit with him either but well just the incident of askiing him for a panadol was the most that i talk to him just between us shi va well he was a funny guy but i didnt get to hang out with him either ... there were the sp brothers who at first everyone hate but eventually liked but i still didnt really like them cause well i had to teach one of them the personal confidence creed and he couldnt be bothered to do it and only memorized til the begining of the second paragraph.then there was this DJ guy whose surname was ngbut i cant remember his name he was nice and all and well we talked a little but just didnt feel the chemistry or real interest to talk to but when i get to know him better i am sure we will be better.

then well theres the girls, tang was really quiet but sweet but very easy to talk to , then there was marie who was very friendly and outgoing and well everyone clicked with her,then there was huey wen who is another quiet girl but extremely caring and sweet and you feel very relax talking to her then there was joanna who well very quiet but when talk she is very funny ... trina the rebellious girl but well a great achiever, then well me and tee geok swan clicked very well and we have this conneciton where we can share things with each other ..so i like her the most

i think overall this camp did help me a lot i learnt studying techniques and welll motivators and also finally love and relationships.... i want to be better and well and i am inspired to as well ....
i willbecome a better person and well suceed in life

PERSONAL CONFIDENCE CREED

I beleive in myself. I believe in my family. I believe in my school.I believe in those who work with me. I believe in my successful friends. I believe in my country.

I believe that God will lend me everything that i need to suceed when i do my best to earn it through faithful and honest work. I believe i will be patient with other people and tolereant with those who do not believe as i do.

I believe that success is the result of intelligent effort and doe not depend on luck or copying in examinations. I believe i will get out of life exactly what i put into it .

Therefor, I will be careful to conduct myself towards others, as I would want them to act towards me. I will not slander those whom i do not like. I will not slight my work no matter what I may see others doing.

I will do the best work work of which I am capable because i have pledged myself to succeed in life and i know that successis always the result of conscientious and efficient effort,Finally, I forgivethose who offend me because i realise i shall sometimes offend others and I will need their forgiveness.

techniques like SQ3R very helpful in studies then SPEED ON also very helpful in life


I WILL DO IT MY WAY !!!!

Thursday, November 16, 2006

dreams

well today has been a real bore ... besides the fact there was Jusco member day today... plain chaotic i could barely stand straight ... its so hot in there and its suppose to be an air-conditioned place...funny thing was i bought everything green today apart from the shoes for Aussie... i got a pair of green surfer shorts, an army pants for sis, and a green sweater for mum.

then well came home ... watch two movies ...daddy day care and Take the Lead .....

Have you ever felt that you really want to something really badly ... i really want to dance ballroom i admire those people who do it so well ... i imagine myself to be one of those girls flying on the dance floor... swaying to the waltz, shaking to the rumba or fox trot , being intimidate in the tango .... i do hope i will get the cahnce someday .... i feel a feeling that i cant describe whenever i dance .... i feel i can let go of everything whenever i dance ...

dreams ... can they come true?

early birthday celebration

hey guys,
am back with this entry
today well overall was just a normal day at home besides the fact that tomorrow its my birthday. I studied my IELTS english today and well i did ok i think ... I mean i did listening and writing so its fine
had a pre celebration with my family one day earlier than my birthday, we went to Miss Read to have dinner a simple celebration ...i had duck confetti spagethini , mum had cabonara spaghetini, dad and mei had lamb masala... we had the chocolate brownie with chocolate sauce and vanilla ice cream ... that turned out to be my bithday cake and had one candle on top for me to blow.

then well on the 14th all i had was just Yui over to hang out.... we were learning languages she learnt a bit of chinese and I a bit of japanese.... then we had lunch at home and begin to play with her ps2 she brought... we first played Final Fantasy 12 then i lost so we played Naruto fighthing game i won this time :) ..... i guess thats it ... i got 12 messages, 3 phone calls,16 messages online,4 gifts ... but i dont know whether ill get more we shall see ....

i guess thats all i have to say for n0w... still next time .... peace

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

lonely times without friends

hey guys
just bored so i decided to blog ....
well heres whats happening to me now:
i am currently attending a course called IELTS which is an english course and its extremely specific ... the whole course is just about following and listening and focus... the woman teahcing us also keep repeat can get sick and tirted of her but well there was another teacher who taught us on tuesday which well even though she repeats she seems to repeat it in a different way

well besides that just well been thinking a lot about him ...its irritating that well i wont be able to see for long now ... i only get to see him occsionally whenever something comes up like an event or something.... and well loads of people are telling me that i shouldnt care about him anymore cause well he doesnt even take the decency to want to keep in contact with me... i dont want to lose him as a friend though cause well he is just nice and well people are all analyzing with me that he is just a friend and sometimes not even worth it to beyour friend as he doesnt call or sms to ask me how i am ...sigh ....dont know what to do anymore .... just well almost drifting everyday and well ... nowadays friends are scarce as well as they are all busy

sad thing is i have to be alone on my birthday this year and only with my family and well i dun think i am going to get much presents from people this year either.....sigh ... well i guess thats all i have to bear with it

thats all for now