HyPeD EmOtIoNs

KK & GS with MIKA

2010-06-16T21:54:00.009+08:00

HELLOOOOOOO my readers
I had an ecstatic time in Singapore ...... everything ... and i mean everything went according to plan .... let me list it down :)

1. I got to meet the people I wanted to meet

2. I got to go onto the skybar ... seeing singapore from the 70th floor of the building was breath-taking !!!

3. I went to HOPE Church , Singapore

4. I went shopping at orchard and bugis

5. I went to the night safari

6. I ate a wonderful Thai Dinner

7. I WENT TO THE WONDERFUL'S MIKA's CONCERT

haha ok now for the details:

I shall now descirbe my lovely partner in crime on this trip . Gina .... my dearest friend has been the greatest pleasure in company. She was extremely positive and bubbly in every single way that just really made my day . We were making jokes along the way at almost everything and commenting on random stuff that passed our way. We even had some serious discussions aobut our lives which really helped me regain the right perspective.

so on the first day ... we arrived in novena square all exhausted by bus but we still had to take a train to my aunt's place in Ang Mo Kio ... which after about an hour of travelling and searching we finally managed to find the place . We were in consideration on whether we wanted to go for night safari on this very night ... we both decided after much contemplation that it was too late to .... I then made second plans by arranging to meet up with joel instead . I invited her along but she said being a third wheeler was no fun ...

well meeting up with joel was rather interesting as the conversations did flow and it was a plus point that he took me up to the Sky Bar ... Man !!! the view was lush ! awesome ! I felt so awestruck being up there . we had drinks , he had a whiskey and i had my usual becks beer . dont worry readers , I did take a pic for you see how the view was . I came back at around 2 in the morning .......

This was my attempt to take of the sky bar

This is THE view outside !!!

some weird itty bitty details ... My aunts house currently had massive construction going on ... you can guess that we didnt have good night's rest ... and also my cousin's house phone alarm went off every day at 7.45 am ... so it was an annoying wake up call every single day . my head pillow was one of those medicinal pillows which i ain't used to so yeah that caused even more disturbance of my sleep .

But that certainly didnt stop us from going to church the next day . We were suppose to go to this church called new creation but after much contemplation and discussions with joel . He discouraged me from going there . So i decided lets visit an old church of mine :) HOPE CHURCH !

Aaaaaa the memories ... the closeness in the congregation and the energetic worship. the sermon the pastor gave was about disciple making and being a disciple maker . and the 3 points i found fascinating were ... do not be a uncritical lover or a unloving critic but be a loving criticI was scanning the crowd in much desperation to find edward ... suddenly my eyes picks out Ivan and i was hoping that edward would be sitting nearby and i was in luck ... i spotted him 3 rows down . we had lunch with edward and we relived the conversations and memories in brisbane ... good times.( in case you guys didnt know me before ... edward was my old crush in brisbane )

Edward :)

Isn't this old man cute ... he knew I was taking his picture

Then after he left us ... we met up with Gina;s friend Andrea . She was a lovely girl who worked at the botanical gardens .. We had loads of conversations on relationships and it turned out great seeing as we all helped out each other in this aspect . I took away something from this conversation and actually for once see the amount of faults in my relationship with Tim ... So the chances of me going back to tim has even shorten further . I dont really want to think about it anymore. I guess it does happens .. Time does heal all wounds

After leaving Andrea ... we went to the NIGHT SAFARI !
Fire-breathing shows ! tonnes of animals ! when we went on the leopard trail it really felt exciting ... looking for the animals in the dark and I am glad Gina really enjoyed herself seeing as it was her first time there . I went to night safari when i was younger .. i remember parts of it but not much .. this trip certainly puts a solid memory on what night safari is like.

then came monday !!! the big day :)

We went to bugis to shop for part of the morning then raffles place to have lunch with my dear couz ke xian . She treated us to siew yoke and char siew rice which tasted delicious . Am glad that Gina and her hit off pretty well . We then went home for a rest before making out way to the concert .
I am speechless at the crowds for MIKA ... There were so many ..... people ! A lot of white people ! very very enthusiasthic people . It was really artistic !!! I loved the colours and the graphics projected on stage . The pictures, images and cartoons used were very imaginative . The use of props were even cute ! He had a huge rag doll made where he cuddled up to during the lolipop song , a huge leg with a high heel shoe during the big girls song . And funny looking ghost that came out and danced around . Besides that , you know how it is when artist sing live they dont sound as good as they do on their recordings ? MIKA gave it his all ! He sounded lush ! and fantastic ! He really had talent :) I bought myself a MIKA shirt :) I am in love ......

The Big ole shoe .. Me love it !

THE CONTENT ME WITH MY MIKA SHIRT :)

weeeeee :)

2010-06-12T00:17:00.003+08:00

HYPERGURL IS HEADING TO THE COUNRTY

BELOW ...........................

SINGAPORE

the different dreams

2010-04-27T11:44:00.004+08:00

For the past week i have had some vivd dreams obviously this is something to blog about :)

I dreamt about my ex during one of the days , all i remember from that dream was that there was a chance of us getting back together and there were loads of text messages tellig me that it was up to me whether we could be back togther. nd there were a lot of lovey dovey messagesI woke up feeling rather confused after that cause everytime i try to forget about him something always pops back up to haunt me about him again.

The next dream was set in a typical chinese war setting . This other girl and I were suppose to be spies of the ..... Jesus army . I have no idea why it was called that when we were in China. But the army was white and easily identifiable seeing as they had a certain glow about them too. so this girl and I were travelling up this road towards the enemy's territory to watch what their next move was. It seemed that they had performed executions on people who didnt want to tell them the location of the Jesus Army. It was a gruesome sight. We both have this coins that could feel the presence of the Jesus army and it would tell the exact location. We were discovered but the soldiers didnt really care about us since we were both just little girls. Then we felt a vision telling us not to worry that Jesus would protect us. We then found a horse and started riding away and I woke up.
Another dream was that in my own house there were 8 snakes and my mom came and woke me up. But i found i was still in a dream. and my mom continued telling me that there was a snake in my bed. i ran out of the house holding my tooth brush and went to the neighbour's house where i asked for permission to stay until the snakes were removed. Then i started brushing my teeth and the reporters came with the fire brigade. When they tried to interview me i was halfway brushng my teeth so they went away and didnt come back after that. THere was an annoucement saying they were all tken away. But once i got back there were 4 more. Hannah Machin was brave enough though to use a bat to hit all four of them . After that iguanas started appearing out of no where so i started runningon the back lnae of myself .... i woke up after that pretty freaked out.
Just yesterday I dreamt that i was actually already married and had a son . My son , husband and I were on vacation somewhere by the beach but i dont remember anything else of it. This dream was more detailed in the sense that my husband of a white race nd well yeah obviously our son had both genes. But yeah thats about what i remember of this dream

Well i dont know what these dreams mean but they certainly was an experience. You guys can comment and give me suggestons ...

a date with girl :D

2010-04-13T15:40:00.007+08:00

Having been stuck home for the last few weeks and only leaving the house just to go to church or to do something my family , I finally got to spend a bit of gurl-time with my darling yuyi :)

So.... what happens when two gurls are together ? * drum roll * .........

you guessed it ! Shopping, gossip , eating !!!!!!!!!

Brought yuyi to bangsar area where we spent time shopping at catwhiskers & little black book ( great outlets by the way , girls who read this take this opportunity to go shop there ; its cheap and nice )

And as usual ....... we both bought stuff ...... each 2 dresses :) which i am very proud of !

I really felt in the mood to spulrge so I decided for us to go and eat in La Bodega . *thumbs up * the pictures will do the talking

The interiors

Yuyi's health drink : consisted of bananas , papayas & pineapples...
frankly it wasn't that nice

Good Ole' Carslberg ( never fails me )

Yuyi's dinner : Smoke salmon with salad and some sauce which was delish !

My Angel Hair Pasta with Lamb balls , olives and pumpkin with cheese sauce. I really love it its yummy :)

to update you on the previous post ... that annoying person did not get back to me and therefore shattered any hopes of making my life a little more interesting this month. So I have decided that this isnt the right time anyway to be with the opposite sex. I shall wait until i am in a more stable position to do so and grow up individually further, to be more independant and matured.

Waitting ...

2010-04-05T19:17:00.002+08:00

The feeling of waitting always leaves us uneasy and uncomfortable. The anticipation of something on whether it would happen or not pushes us to a place that for everyone it feels different. Some people feel the rush of excitement , others just fidget around trying to fill their time not to think about it.

This generation of people has been thrown into an instantaneous world where most of the time we don't have to wait very long for stuff to happen . Come from instant messages, to email, to mobile phones , fast food restaurants..... just about anything is instant nowadays. But when it happens, it makes us tick and we get frustrated. Where has all the patience gone ... The days when people used to wait upon a single letter from their loved one who was involved in the war. Or a single sentence telegram informing their love ones about their well - being.

Personally, being a born into this generation has made me realized how impatient i can get and that with waitting it does help you grow more as a person.

* take deep breathes in * I need to calm down ... assurance to myself ... it will happen ... it will happen

mixture

2010-03-01T09:37:00.005+08:00

readers ...

its been 365 days since that dreadful day happen. having to go through all the emotions and heartaches as well as longing certainly can change a whole person. but i guess not being together was a good decision for me and him to grow up even more to become better for the next person we are going to be with . the significant dates last month and today have actually messed up my system and my line of thought completely went haywired. eventhough at times i still think about the what ifs and do miss him, my overall being is still compassionate enough to wish him all the best in all that he do and that he will be happy.

last week on the other hand was filled with activities where i was meeting up with wan pin every other day ( hes a friend who is back from queensland, aussie just for chinese new year). late night movie ( 14 blades ) on tuesday, wednesday afternoon we hung out at 1 utama and ate delicious , friday we went for alena's birthday bash at mist club ( got us worried sick cause she fainted ). now that he has gone back , i wish him all the best for the coming year in aussie and that he would do well.

saturday night was a law alumni night in cheraton hotel , it was held by the university of malaya. the food wasnt great but i invited brigette and yuyi along for company and we three had fun dressing up . but thanks gurls for accompanying me and i did have fun with you :) hoepfully we can do more of this in the future.

sunday i met up with brigette again after church and hung out with her for some drinks and cakes in the afternoon in secret recipe ... love spending time with you dear ... hope we can do this when you do start your course at ACCA . definitely going to be hectic for you.

finally sunday night me and sis with my cousins went all the way to klang for a seafood dinner to celebrate chap goh meh. dinner at 5.30 man ... early right ?? haha we just wanted to avoid the crowds . the food was generally good but i think its definitely too far to go and eat there.

i guess thats all for now til then hear from me soon

the weekend !!

2010-02-07T21:09:00.002+08:00

hey readers ,

I was freaking excited this weekend . generally been in the upbeat eventhough yeah in the background there are the past things bothering me. but i actually did put them aside and really took an opportunity to enjoy myself properly .

Am thankful to my dear childhood friend Wei Li :) . You are the best babes ... I am seriously gonna miss you when you head back to Aussieland. I am so glad that we can still be great friends after all these years and i cant believe that its gonna be 17 years that we have been friends. definitely treasure it dearly to my heart. We both gotta keep in touch .. and do what we have said these holidays k... the trips ... the living together ( if we can ) and every other thing that we may experience life together .

We had a sesh ( drinking ) at a bar in bangsar called alexis. Let me see... if i can remember their names , there were only 3 guys anyway : Derek, Jack and Khin Hock. Charming guys and very gentleman of them not to drink at all and remained sober. loved the court story from Khin Hock it was really shocking to see it happen to someone our age. i mean i have read these stuff in newspapers and heard stories from friends about their friends but never herd it from an actual person's mouth. XD I do not want to lie one did intrigued me a lil with his charm and wit.

And yes teenstreeters out there who read my blog ! The base lessons that we learnt last year have been used in teaching sunday school today in my church to a bunch of primary four kids ! Praise the Lord that they were effective and the Kids were very intereactive.

guess thats all i have to write for now

a bit of this and that

2010-01-11T08:47:00.004+08:00

hello readers,
hypergal is back here again for another update .

nothing throughly excitting has been happening in her life but well she will still give you the gist as to what is happening in her life

the weekend of new years , we went up to the ole boring frasers hill . If i got to rant , people will surely say ... dont complain ... at least you have a good place to go to relax. That is very true , but not if you have already been there loads of times. Sure the air is still fresh and you could prolly spot the silver-eared mesia ( which is the main highlight there ) but thats about what you can do there really.

although i would have to say this time i did rather enjoy catching up with a cousin and well got to know his view points on life. pretty exictting to find out that we were connected more than just cousins.

the very next weekend it was off to the beach for our family . Since one of our family friend's son got married and was having his third dinner party. We stayed at Hyatt hotel in Kuantan. it was pretty refreshing to be by the sea again. the dinner party was pretty sweet as the groom sang you raised me up to his own parents as well as his parents -in -law. apparently my sister said that the mom of the groom cried and was really touched.

oh yeah and by the way guys - hypergal has gotten her haircut too.... Check it out ! :)

so far this post has been rather descriptive about events and well now down to feelings... this month of January eventhough it has been a new year has been honestly difficult for me . having reminisce over the past January on the affair of the heart.

All i can think is just about you
on how much i miss our embraces
but people in my circles
all think i just dont quite get romances.

no one understands
how much you meant to me
and up til 10 months
i still think about us to be

Am I that naive ?
Am I that guillible ?
the answers to those questions
is unfortunately exactly.

guess thats all ... til next post

christmas happenings

2009-12-31T14:55:00.004+08:00

looking back on the year and christmas as i have stated in the past post that it has been a pretty rough year for me . but i guess its been placed in front of me for a reason to learn something from it and to help me in the future.

christmas was a flow from totally happy to totally sad ... completely ruined from just a single sensitive statement . can you imagine i spent my christmas dinner coop up in my room and not eating anything apart from cereal .... it certainly is a memorable christmas .. in the opposite way
and to add upon it this other person is too dumb to realize that there are people out there who care about her more than that person who she still wants to protect .... who hurt her and she still wants to protect .... ughhhhh ...

Sorry ... i know christmas is suppose to be a season of joy and happiness but i just had to let those things out cause its giving me emotional headaches. on th brighter side of things, our church performance went great, compliments for losing weight and my ole gang coming over to my house for lunch had an awesome time .

well then the next day i went over to SIB church to watch their musical which was great ! they must have spent a bomb on the stage props cause it looked really professionally done . it was a plus point that i got to spend time with my childhood friend again and my pet bro :) . and i got to catch p with my old SIB friends that i met in narrow street . in fact one of them was in the musical ... great job dear ... you were really good as a backup dancer and singer.

lastly before we start blogging in the year 2010 , i had a great time catching up with some old friends whom i met from cardiff , since they were back in malaysia. thanks for a great day yesterday guys, it makes me even miss cardiff more and looking forward to going back in september. ill post those pics up later since they are still in my phone and i havent uploaded them yet .

Anyways.....

WISHING EVERYONE A HAPPY NEW 2010 ... a new start , a new beginning and a better year.

To God

2009-12-21T10:45:00.002+08:00

My path to desire you
has been twisted and frayed
I dont know why but you still
give me a way

Why are you such a fogiving God ?
these questions fills my mind
I definitely don't deserve it
from the sins I do everytime.

Take hold of me , Lord
I'm much scared and vunerable
continue to encourage me , Lord
May I be able

I summit to you
with all that I am
Let me be as faithfuland and obedient
just like Abraham

Lord, You are the Rock of Ages ,
The God Almighty
Let all Christians in stages
forever give their praises .

massive updates

2009-12-15T17:26:00.002+08:00

hey people ,

i know i have been on hiatsu for many months now ... generally could not face my blog as i get too emotional everytime i see my blog . but i guess its time for me to snap out of that mode and start writting again .

The past few months have been a real emotional vunerable journey . needed to do some growing up and well face reality . It has made me realized somewhat that i am truly not a kid anymore and i needed to stand on my own two feet and start thinking about what my next step in life was.

massive emotional overload seeing as everything bad suddenly was happening to me. i decided not to go back to cardiff seeing as i truly felt lost about what i was doing and i realized i was a bare-minimum christian in Cardiff. in fact i would have to confess that i have done somethings which i am not very proud of . but i guess what has happened already is past and cannot be taken back . i only can give one clue guys which is to say that i am still a virgin .

everything has settle and i am close to normal but i do break down sometimes when i start thinking about things ( including the ex, and nothing to look forward to ) i cried every other day and seriously i felt my life had no meaning.

i picked up the little bits left and well decided to take up jobs to fill my time . did a stint in megakids whereby its an indoor playground and had to handle and manage kids. then decided that the work was too hard and the pay was too little and my mum found me a job at her academy to teach english to china students.

well the only things that did give me meaning in my life was church and well looking forward to teen street.

Teenstreet
aaaahhh, the good ole days of teenstreet , i never get bored of it . ( not yet anywayz). this year was totally different as it was a smaller scaled camp and it was in Sarawak. It was in this former minister's bungalow in a place called Goshen.

I got to go as a coach this year which was really excittting. I had two days extra before the teens arrive and those times were relaxing. seeing as the house was really empty and well the coaches had a chance to get to know one another and become closer . ok i always describe people i get to know since my main interest is in people

Che chung - this guy is a pastor ! and he is only 24 ( and engaged ) ... which is awesome ! he has so much passion for Christ . His church is doing reading buses bring books to the village areas in Sarawak and well tuition classes are conducted in this home for lousy . and when i say lousy i mean really poor students who at primary 5 cant even do 8 x 7 .

Barnabas - he first ignored me in the home i was resting when waitting for the rest to arrive to go to the campsite. but when we got to know a lil of each other in the car i realized that he was a much nicer person than that . James even said i brought out a side of him which he hadnt seen before.

James - since i mentioned james ill describe him now . he is this 15 year old guy who has a huge passion for God ( pastor ned and aunty siew may 's son) . he is half indian and half chinese . he was funny to have around to tease each other and well we shared a few experiences with each other .

Adam - well first guy i met as a coach on the van even before barnabas . he was extremely sweet and a real gentleman and wanted to help me in everything. he took food for me cared for my well being and we could chat almost about everything under the sun . we were both very interested to get to know each other better. XD ( in fact ill be going to see his church concert performing at sunway pyramid this saturday will blog about it ) . there may be somethings going on there may be not .... seeing as people saw there was chemistry between us and there were sparks. and a few people mentioned he lighted up whenever i walked into the room :) .... but will see how this friendship goes ...

chester - well he and i were mostly talking about english on the van all the way from the airport to the campsite and in fact it was a rather interesting topic. he is a graduate in linguistics and well he majored in english instead of any other language. i liked the fact that he gave me this really nice bear hug before we left each other at the end of camp.

Shu en - shes the darling , as she was the only other girl coach besides me , we spent quite a bit of time together and well she was the sweetest girl. we called each other darlings during the camp and well had this mutual understanding for each other. we both made a pact somehow that she could hang out with barnabas and i could hang out with adam. cause the CLS teenstreet code said that no boy or no girl could be alone.

Martin - this guy was unexpectedly friendly cause i thought he was the type that if you didnt know him he wouldnt care about you. he included me in a lot of stuff and was actually very down to earth and nice to talk to . guess it happens when you make the effort with someone they would open up to you . he was cool and i adopted him as a lil bro .

oooo the twins at camp were an interesting pair ! - David and Jospeh , I had quite a bit of fun trying to recognize who is who and well got to spend time with David during the photo hunt which i discovered he was afraid of chickens . And i spent time with jospeh on the bus getting to know him better even giving him some tips on how to attract girls not that he isnt capable with how nice he is and actually cute ( i am sure girls his age swoon over him ) but i just gave him a lil more insight.

My net people were really close knit and the people from brunei were a really interesting bunch .

Michelle- straight away saw a younger version of me , and i could immediately advice her on everything . we clicked instantly like two peas in a pod and well eventually she started calling me mummy , which i found really funny. but yeah her way of being friendly towards guy did rub wrongly on some people which i totally understood since i was like that at her age and so i did advice her a lot along the way.

Caroline - another interesting girl ( my second daughter ) . shes a lil tomboyish and girlish but you can definitely see that shes a strong woman in God and in some ways i do admire her strong spirit . but when she broke down during throne room i felt touch and immediately went to care for her .

Wendy- she was this really silent person who just wouldnt open up . but on the last day i found out why she wasnt opening up because she does have a lot on her mind and yeah she was afraid to be judged by leaders in the church . i will continue to pray for her .

Kirsten and Lydia - they are sisters who live in my neighbourhood ack where i came from and being their coach was interesting . they are from first baptist church which do have pretty conservative backgrounds and are also pretty innocent. it was good to help them along the way with the struggles of christianity that wasnt really working out in their church.

Tabitha- a sister of one of teenstreet mates during contagious . ( i cant believe i am coaching the younger sis now ) . she was pretty quiet but she did have some struggle to share during our net times which were really insightful and helped the girls to open up more.

aileen - she was this singaporean girl who barely said two words in our net discussion and she ddint really participated well in our net , even when we were doing a dancing competition in the main hall towards a malay song. we had to really chide her to join us

the fact that i played this swedish game and i won our two games makes me so proud . I never felt this way about a sport before and it really boost up my confidence in trying new things and sports . peter the swedish guy even told me i could qualify for the european league ... hehe

shhh time this year varied , previous years all i did was observe nature and walked the grounds of KTJ . this year however i did 3 days of that and two days i stayed inside. i took photo of leaves , ants on a wire , the scenery surrounding the campsite . i wrote a poem on one day and the last day i just spent praying to God about which ministry to choose and to serve in when i come back to church . ( i have been asked to serve in five which makes me distress about which to choose ) .

i really do treasure the friendships i made this year at teenstreet because they were different from all the previous years .

Stop the drop: Recognize , Reject, Remove the idols from your lives
Live for the Lord : the Lord of Life , Law , Love
Go for God: Get in , Get up , Get out ,

The theme was Human to make us fully realize that was humans in comparison to God we are more sinful in nature and what were the steps we took to make sure that we turn more towards God .

i guess thats it ... if you read til here i applaude you seeing as this was a really long post

being vunerable

2009-07-23T15:34:00.004+08:00

i dont know why but i seem to be always apologizing for not updating my blog. maybe because i tend to only write in it when i really feel the need to. if not i wouldnt care about updating it no matter how free i am .

my life has been mundane and meaningless which got me thinking that i havent actually been doing anything productive for myself . for the first time in life i feel empty with really nothing to excite me or keep me contented for long while. i get bored easily. what has my life come down to... why am i suddenly so lazy and ignorant not wanting to do anything.

and it is in these times which lead to thoughts of whether you regret anything that has happened to you. i know i am not suppose to base what i feel upon one person . but somehow my life has changed because of it ... in fact i understand more what some of my friends are going through.the total change of 180 degrees, i was surprise that a person could change that much but it happens.and it happened to ..........me.

there hasnt been a word said between us since the last text you sent me because i didnt reply back. on the surface i just want to be stubborn and ignore you seeing as you dont care so much about me anymore , but deep down i still question whether you still do hover cause you were just like that even when we were together ..... i know i can never change how you feel and i cant force you do anything for me ..... so i am just going ito leave it in a tiny box at the back of my mind with a really faint flame that you would come back but the odds are definitely against me .

At times i wonder whether you still think about me
At times i wonder whether i mean to you at all
At times i wonder why did it turn out to be
At times i wonder why wont you call

I hate you for ending this
I hate you for putting hope into it
I hate you for making me miss
I hate you for not putting effort in the end one bit.

Just look at what you have turned me into
Just look at what you have done
Just look at what you have to put me through
Just look ....at what ... you have ... done

missing updates

2009-07-02T17:24:00.002+08:00

hey readers of my blog ... i know i havent been updating ...times passes really fast and its already a month since i last blogged .

for this entry ill just probably write down what i remember the last few weeks of what i did in cardiff before i left for my tour of UK and Rome.

I remember i went out with Gareth and Audrey the weekend before i had my IP exam . we went to watch Nght at the musuem 2 which was great . i really glad to have spent more time with gareth ... we really bonded this term and yeah now we are great buds. Its been pretty rough year with its ups and downs with him but it all worked out ok in the end. we both gained a good friend out of this, i know i can depend on him and he can depend on me

that same weekend Logos Hope docked at Cardiff Bay. I went down to see Ethan who was on the ship worknbg for 3 months . he told me his experiences and brought us around the ship for free. even got to see the kitchens which actually was a place visitors werent suppose to step into. Thanks Ethan me and my girlfriends enjoyed attending church service on the ship and the tour.

one of the days i went out with a bunch of frnech people. its been a nice year with them because they included me in most of their outings and well they truly dd take care of me when we went clubbing. this time though i met up wth a friend whom he and his friend began to fought over me in the club. both of them gave me lovebites which hurt the next day . and yes this hypergal did went further than she should . totally regret it and never doing it ever again ( p.s. dont worry guys am still a virgin )

then the next day Dr corrie took me to bristol to visit this other old lady , mrs olwen.shes 80 and she is stll so active . playing piano for concerts , weddings, teaching people to play . i really do admire the energy she has .

met up nicole for lunch which i didnt see her for the whole term. finally gettng a day to spend tme with her was the best thing. she cooked me this pasta bake which tasted delicious. then had to rush off to the Pot for a meeting with roselyn which we caught up over coffee. love that restaurant . then had to rush to Xiu mei's house for a farewell party for martina. we also celebrated the birthdays which were going to be in the summer hols where we werent going to meet each other. we went clubbing after the scrumptious dinner. the club we went to was a club for working adults . was pretty funny to see working adults so vunerable but at the same time there were those who could not keep their hands to themselves. there was one who was really nice to me and in fact he wasnt bad looking either . he was from south hampton down with his mates on a short weekend break . he told me he works as a police officer , i expect he was in his early 30s. my friends even went home with him . i couldnt cause i had Cu beach party the next day.

Cu beach party was really wet , it rained the whole day . and we all felt miserable that the rain ruined our day but oh well we made the best of it. we went to mumbles beach , had our bbq in the shade and plenty of hot chocolate and drinks in the pubs and cafe up the road. i stuck on with any, malcom, steve, dai, katherine, which in impulse we all decided to organixe a last get together , with me as the cook . overall i had fun though with this group of people , made me feel so at home. its been a great year with them seeing as we all share the same group of friends.

i met up with tim as well the day of his exams and well just shared a lunch in the park . it was pretty awkward but oh well , it was for the better to establish that we were just friends and no longer and chance of being together ever again. i even bought him a card and gave him a shirt for his birthday which was the weekend 7/6. then the next time i saw him was when we were with the same group of friends we shared , which was phoebe, darren, dai, katherine,oli, helen,tim.it was great beng with them , i always felt welcome when i was around them . they were my support group this year and i wouldnt have made it without them eventhough they were a year older. will treasure their friendships.

the eve of this lunch i had to cook dinner for the last gathering , which i made curry chicken, stir fry veggies and rice . steve, alice mitchell. malcom. amy, katherne, dai ,jager and i invted aliastair since i didnt want to be the odd one out of that group. i guess we all had a great time laughing and taking pictures. its so sad wont be able to see aliastair anymore seeng as he is going to oxford for the next year to work with mini coopers.

then went to london to meet up with Pei xia and we had a makeover with studio london which was really fun . purchased 4 shots , cost me a bomb though , never ever doing these things ever again.and stayed with Uncle Pey kan and aunty Helen . the children were really adorable and sweet . i cant believe that emma is so grown ! i am truly amazed that time has passed so fast .

guess thats all for now ... i'll blog about my trip with my family in the next entry rght now have to go and make dinner talk to you guys soon

updates

2009-05-29T00:08:00.004+08:00

hey guys i know i havent been blogging for a while just seem to be pretty busy this week. have my two last exams . in fact just had one today . i am freaking tired ...from the lack of sleep . there is nothing much to blog about really apart from the fact that i have been studying loads.

after my paper on last thursday decided to take a break for the day and went round to sengenhydd to meet up with a few people. hannah machin and i spent the afternoon catching up and went round to the art gallery . the orginal blue lady that has been hosted in ths particular art gallery has now gone on tour. it was really sunny that day so we basked in the sun on the lawn area just outside the musuem. later after dinner which i made a fantastic roast chicken with cauliflower cheese i hopped over to jacqueline's house . this would be my first time going over to her place after this whole year which is awesome. she was on the top floor of H block in sengenhydd . Rownie came along too and we started chatting happily. love the good times with girlfriends . they were so sweet to walk me home too which they didnt have to but they did.

the musuem area.

although on the spur of the moment on saturday, me and audrey decided to take a trip to birstol . not bad getting tickets by bus for just 9 pounds both ways. it was great and all having it been sunny and all me and audrey did was relaxed by shopping the entire day . bought 3 items - lasenza underwear ( shared the 5 for 12 pounds wth audrey ), a overalls dress from miss selfridge, and a pair of sneakers from new look which i truly love .ended with a dinner with my cousin who is currently at university of Bristol doing her final year of law. it was great to see you again couz !

well woke up on sunday morning feeling rubbish, even after church didnt feel at all better . was just thinking loads about him that day and it really pulled my esteem down. thought about him to the point i just couldnt take it anymore and decided to text him. he did reply until the very next day . which did make me feel slightly better but crap at the same time. he somehow doesnt understands how much he meant to me. but i bet he is trying to sort things out in his private life hopefully.....

audrey and mua

blogging more about my recent new found addicted activity .its pretty bad and i definitely would have to cut down on it .... seeeing as my bank account money just flying away without really know where its going . * drum roll *......... its ebay ! ebaying here is great its reliable and trustable and to date i have had 8 items . i really need to put it more under control next year.

oh and another ! i am tuned in to Britains got talent ! every single day of the week now ! its so amazing to see the talent they have in britain! flawless amazing dance group , diversity ( interesting choreography ) , Shaheen Jafargholi( am rooting for him because he is my friend's cousin ) , shaun smith ( the hot guy, who is 17 , who sings really well) , stravros and flately ( the funny greek dancers ) and finally the overally rated Susan Boyle. gonna be watching another round of it tonight ... hehe cant wait

before i go .... recently i have had two weird dreams ... involving two murders which freaked the hell out of me . one had a buffet which we all ended up drinkng two people's blood and the chefs aim from the start was to find these two people and kill them and the next dream had me and my extended famly running away from killing someone in a car

anywayz to end this entry , here is a pic of the view outside my window . you wouldnt expect wales to be this sunny eh ?

peace y'all.

a week and more

2009-05-17T02:54:00.004+08:00

time for another entry ...

i am way bored out of my mind right now studying land law .... the cases just wouldnt stick into my brain. i dont know how i am going to survive on monday. maybe ill pull an all nighter on sunday who knows.

allow me to just blab a lil about my week .this week has been pretty intense with studying but at the same time my social life was once in its open . as i had a weeks time to spare to study for one subject so i decided to let go a lil .

been spending time at audrey's more cause i really do find the engineering library very comfortable to study in . and not only that theheating hasbeen permanently turned off since spring has arrived but its still soooooo cold . somehow audrey's hall seems warmer. i had the excitting privellege to cook for two of audrey'a housemates . seemed that they both enjoyed it.

Fun Fact : the egg box i bought from tesco and left in audrey's all had double yolks in it ... we were so lucky .... its like we struck gold . heres a picture of our fascination : lol

there was one night staying over at aud's place i think it was monday where we all just let go after exams and well played twister ... unfortunately i had a cold then so i couldnt really bend upside down wouldnt want my flu to be running everywhere . but it was hillarious to see them battling out each other . laura and gary were exceptionally funny . plus there were many a times that gary did try to hit on aud .... could definitely see that he likes her ... hopefully he does make amore significant move to get her attention . shes a stubborn bull who would only go out with a guy if shes been asked .

laura & gary

gary

well from tuesday to wednesday i had pure luxury of staying in town with one of my friends . she has a posh apartment next to the capitol which was freaking awesome. it was just like staying in a hotel . i felt so pampered . she seriously has loads to splash. i really did make full use of her sky tv. watched loads of tv programmes .and well had the privellege of studying on a sofa which was absolutely comfortable. i got to eat nasi lemak with sambal too which she cooked. really did feel at home there and was very refreshed the next day .

wednesday rolled round , woke up and left illy's house at 11 cause needed to head to sainsburys and by pure luck, fate or whatever you called it , i met my dear olly , who previous night text me to asked me to go for a gig with him that night. there was a lil misunderstanding on being to lovey dovey in our text,wouldnt blame him to think that way , i can be pretty flirtatious. felt a jolt of excitement leaped in me when i saw him . it really made my day. it was funny that he was shopping for ingrediants to make spaghetti bolognese, didnt really know what to get so i guided him along the way.

had lunch at Xiu mei's house with martina . i decided to try out the bbq, curry powder recipe for the chicken ( thanks div , i still remember the recipe you gave ) . it was delicious . we had a salad and baked potaotes on the side ... yummy ..... it was then down to solid work and doing my laundry at the same time. went out to dinner with Dr Corrie at Tenkaichi seeing as she hasnt tried japanese before ... so i introduced her to the food . she loved it, and the conversations we had were great. in a way yes you could say shes is sort of like my surrogated grandmother in cardiff and i am honoured to have one who is her.

not too long then 10 rolled round which i then walked to olly's to walk to town . the gig was aparently held at rococos . i had a malibu and olly had two carlings. i shared some of olly's carling as well .the gig turned out to be great. the band was called bluegrass and had two members.one played the double bass and the other was a guitarist who occasionally tapped on the base drum. they played the 1930s american music which was great. a few to name was dont know why by norah jones, the bare-necessities in the disney movie the jungle book, some old welsh song for rugby, johnny cash songs . i totally enjoyed myself and olly's company .

Bluegrass

thursday i had lunch with louisa hocking at the pot up crwys road. this cafe is really small but yet they served such authentic food and shakes . well worth the prices too ! we were both trying to get to know each other better since we have been postponing it since before easter . but it was great having to get to know more about her life and she'll still be in cardiff next year .... yay ! means i can spend more time with her .....

yesterday pretty much had a study day at home ... with andre taking me out to dinner at an indian restaurant down city road. ended up sitting in the exact same table the last time i went there with andrew . but yeah andre and i went into complaining modes since we both love doing that when we talk to each other . we let it all out since neither of us would judge each other . andre is someone whom i could dish out all the dirts and he would hear me out and i do the same for him. afterwards i decided i needed to get out so i went over to his place and he had two other friends over lynn and ariff for a study group ... which was pretty distracting but oh well it was good fun hanging out with them. you wouldnt guess where i ended up ... i ended up sleeping next door in hannah's flat which she willingly made a bed on the floor for me . it was good for me to spend time with her seeing as we havent been catching up much . somehow i still feel a slight jealousy for her though and her current bf . ( they started the same time i did but are still going strong whereas mine isnt ) this is a personal battle that i have been trying to push away to not let it get in the way of our friendship . i am trying but its difficult.

and here i am on a saturday writting down what the past week has been . oooo almost forgot, slight opening up session with my housemate gaz as he was telling me about his worries for his course , and what to do next . i would say that was great seeing that i was more needed and he wouldnt push me away to depend on his own feet .

guess thats all i have to say for now ... a bit panicky for my land law exam on monday ... pray hard and wish me luck !

the week

2009-05-07T17:14:00.003+08:00

hey people ,

hypergal here has been settling back into cardiff .. been back for a week now ...sorry guys from not updating asap . just had to get my rhythm back .

i flew on the 28th and arrived on the29th . on the plane there was an old lady hyperventalating next to me which was pretty freaky ... she could have died ... but i guess she just had trouble breathing and the flight attendants had to attend to her with oxygen tanks and :( i had to get out of my seat for that. think it was roughly half an hour. besides that all was well. i managed to explore amsterdam airport for 4 hours . i think i walked the whole airport. was pretty interesting. the wed i touched down at 10 am in the morning and called a few people to catch up on. was feeling a lil rubbish so i called one of my best gurl friends and she just told me to do whatever i wanted . so in fact the one thing i wanted to do most was to go and see him.

the meeting was just plain weird. first of all he had the weirdest haircut to date, done by hiis housemate. he was hungover from sustainaball the previous night. i am glad he made effort to see me though.... eventhough it was only freaking 40 min or so. cause at 2.40 he was like i really need to go work .... in my head i was thinking you havent seen me for a freaking month and you cant even spare me an hour. madesmall talk in the kitchen a lil on the way out ... and in midst of it he reached out to hug me so i hugged him back and he certainly didnt want to let go . then at the door i gave him encouragement for his work and wanted to pat his back but instead i got hugged again . i am not going to lie it did felt nice ... but it just made me even more confuse.

i have been thinking loads about it this week. in fact i got "scolded " by three guys this week that i should move on . thanks to one guy in particular who made me realized and come to my senses.
seeing as he put himself in my guy's shoes and said he has been there and done that before ... and it helps that he is english as well so it makes more sense ....;)

stayed with audrey during the weekend which was great since i managed to get some serious studying done and spent time with her.i discovered that the engineering library is really comfortable to study in ! seeing as its new and all... the desks are all so modern and white .... got to know austin and gary better and yeah they are an interesting bunch of people.austin was one of the guys who lectured me about my situation and his black accents all came out ... you know the ones where in the olden days the black old women used it to nag the younger ones ...i love it it was so funny .

stayed with audrey until tuesday .then from tuesday to wed i stayed with sonia in abedare hall.. seriously i thnk abedare hall can be pretty depressing i am glad i dont stay there . the old feeling of it just made me more depress ... but guess i could help her out from being lonely . it might be the reason that i associate there with the fact that in december i was really sick and i was staying there for a week plus . oh well it was a good two days of studying in the library downstairs.

was in law school the whole afternoon getting work done which was great ... although there was an irritating guy next to me who kept walking around every 15 to 30 min or so .... which got pretty annoying. oh well hopefully he did managed to get some criminal law done....

talked to div on facebook about it and yeah we are both going through similar stuff and we both decided to be strong together through this tough situation .

Christian Union at night was enriching cause the worship was great and it made me realized how much more i have to live for rather than sulking about my situation . the topic that night was patience .... there was a point about being patient with people ... it struck me and made me confused a lil on whether i should be more patient with tim ... but then again i need to make myself happy and be content with myself .

overall hypergal is moving on... slowly and surely .... cause i finally realized that i need someone who can cater more to my needs .... and she finally admits that she isnt guilty anymore and is content of being single .

letting go

2009-04-27T14:53:00.000+08:00

with this sullen day
passing by
all my thoughts
are focused, just thinking about you

i still query
were we an accident?
was it just for fun ?
werent they treasure memories, we cant just be over and done?

no matter how hard i try
i just cant let go
i know you want me to try harder
but its tearing me apart inside, killing my soul

am sitting on a fence
beng pulled apart
i wish it would mak emore sense
that we never had to depart.

deeper love

2009-04-27T14:36:00.000+08:00

many a times
i ponder
on whether
all those moments
were just a series of mimes?

How can i make you understand?
this is how much you mean to me
that i dont just care about you
but also with everything else and your being

i may seem strong
on the forefront, the surface
in actual fact rather
my heart for you , still cries and longs

the power is in your hands
to determine whether we can go on
even with words of denial at
the present moment
i hope and pray your view bends ....

an eventful few days

2009-04-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

hey readers of my blog,
the past few days have been really packed with activities. last friday was my sister's birthday .... she actually didnt want to have anything at all . but her friends from SIS decided to throw a surprise birthday for her . she even cried when her wesleyans came for her . 5 guys, which i thought was really sweet of them to turn up and made effort . they even got her a secret recipe cake. i organized some games for her friends to bond and get to know each other better , they looked like they enjoyed it . had catering food which was delicious .

Saturday , my gang took me to FRIM . which was good fun and i managed to get some exercise and catch up with them . it was great to be out with them. always love spending time with them always will. thanks guys for giving me a great day i really did enjoy myself . although i did hurt myself at the waterfall , had a bruised left side cause i slipped on the smooth rocks. but overall it was a good day .

the whole week after this i had loads of motivation to study .just suddenly had that drive , prolly the stress kick in , i just felt myself wanting to read my boring law books every day, and finally found some joy in doing it .

wednesday rolled round, i drove out ! its an acheivement , cause i drove me and yuyi to brickfields to have an indian lunch ! we had a great 3 hours just catching up and i was introducing yuyi to indian food . so it was definitely an experience for her . i really enjoyed it a lot ! thanks Yuyi for giving such a great wednesday, i loved sharing it with you .

well as for today , my cousin purporsely took off work for me to spend time with me today which was really really sweet of her . she came yesterday to sleep over so that she didnt have to rush in the morning from subang. i was really shocked and touched she would do such a thing for me. and so we chatted until 3 am in the morning . and today we basically went to italianese to eat lunch and chatted for 3 hours straight continuing from last night.our conversations were really opened and we shared our worries and our lives . i really love those times .

coming home from this outing another person was waitting for me . jan who is one of my cousin's ex girlfriend, who is now workng as a clinical psychologist. mum was there as well but she opened up old wounds well which made me breakdown of jan and my couz who was still around . sigh .... man i hate these moments they are so embarassing . urggghhh ! but overall had good conversations with jan finding out how she overcame her hurdles when she was my age . shes now currently engage and i am so excited for her ! congrats Jan !

emotionally i have been thinking a lot still about my relationship . i guess its really impossible for me to get you off my mind and i have to accept it as part of my routine that you will jsut continue to pop in everything i do . time will tell . i am still thinking to my stand to wait ... so all i have to have now is just patience to wait and see.

thats all .... til next entry

short rant

2009-04-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

here i am guys again ....

its been a great relaxing holiday so far . cause this hypergal has been trying to recover from those emotions she couldnt handle. being back has been great since i have been pampered so much by my family . not so much my friends as my previous posts have mentioned .

there was only one outing this week , which was with Pei ru, my primary school friend whom i havent seen in like 6 years . ( scary thought on how time has flew). it was great to know that she was still the same ole friend i knew in primary school, but obviously now with stronger views about life . the conversations we had were bliss and we found out we both still click after all these years which is great ! would be wanting to spend more time with you in the future my dear ! so with obvious reasons of not seeing each other for so long , there had to be a picture ....this was the highlight of my week .

as this blog is for the needs of my emotional side ..... i shall continue to reveal what is happening. there have been loads of dreams lately which freaks me out completely when i wake up in the morning . i get that weird tingling feeling when i get up as if i have not slept properly at all.

to stand on my own two feet ?

2009-04-09T14:14:00.000+08:00

well readers of my blog ....

i have been back home for more than a week now .

nothing excitting has much happen. i get to see my family ( my dad's side as well), some close friends, only have met up with 3 friends so far . i would say its pretty pathethic. i know its exam period and i am suppose to be studying and doing my assignments but on the other hand well i should also be in some way catching with my friends right?

wrong.... well the first week i just had an awful sleeping time table . i think it still happens ... i slept at 4am and woke up the next day at around 2 ( which if you had to convert would be about10 pm in UK and 8 am ).

the routines everyday its the same....i get up eat lunch, then start work straight away .then well have dinner and continuing working. i guess you could say its a good thing i am concentrating .... but its all just on the surface

the reality in fact - my mind still wonders about my whole situation and how much i truly miss him. i have been pulled like a rubber band on both ends stretch between two views on how i am suppose to handle this.

on one end , people say that i am young and naive to even give him anymore chances since i have been hurt so badly and that i should just completely move on . and that i definitely deserve better than this . there are those who lecture me about still doing things for him. i shouldnt even be friends with him anymore. but i really hate making enemies eventhough someone has hurt me i still will be friends with them. the tagline- there are many more fishes in the sea .....

the other end of the spectrum , there are those went through similar situations that say he does deserve my chance and well i should continue to support him and be there for him cause he needs me most now in this vunerable period. i am touched by the amount he had changed for me in that short period we were officially together. i mean isnt that what love is suppose to be ... its not all the glitz and glam which are shown in the movie but of how honest and "ugly" you can be in front that other half and yet still love each other. i would say me and him have passed that stage ..... and yes we have fit this definition of love. tagline-you truly love the one person for who they are

if there was one thing however that i learnt from this relationship is yes to listen to people's views but really its all up to my own decision in the end and people shouldnt influence it anymore and that i should not waiver. i have to make a stand on my own views and feet.

the Akon song - Right Now ( Na na na ) somehow just sings the desire of my heart now for this particular situation .

i guess thats all i have to write about

til next entry

xx

peace out

returning to homeland

2009-03-30T17:52:00.000+08:00

heya readers of my blog,

just here to say that Hypergal is going back to malaysia at the 17:35 flight from cardiff to malaysia

will be arriving at 15:00 on tuesday .

wahay !!!!! Malaysia here i come !

a gurlz night out

2009-03-26T21:01:00.001+08:00

my dear olly

Anna and Bing
Bing and Martina

Xiu mei and Mua

Xiu Mei and Bing

i have something to blog about how amazing...

last night Xiu mei's household decided to have a girl's night out and well we had a huge dinner and later on we had drinks

let me list down the drinks we had :

4 bottles of white wine

one vodka shot each

and foster beers ( prolly each of us had one , cause we shared it among ourselves)

starting off with the wine at home and then we went to the welsh club at 12. which was really fun the club was really small and it was pretty comfortable.

i got a stamp on my left hand now stating CLWB IFOR BACH ILAWR which is in welsh not really sure whether it was the club's name though.

the five of us girls - Martina, Anna , Bing, Xiu Mei and me . we were all happily dancing on the dance floors. even some of us girls managed to pick up guys .... hehe including me ....

even met up with a really good friend Oliver Ludlow in the same club . Fate i tell you ! i really wanted to meet him and i got to spend a bit of time with him in the club ..... good ole mate gonna miss you when i am back in malaysia for a month ....

anywayz a bg thank you gurls for a wonderful night out ... i think i really needed it after all the circumstances that was happening to me for the past month.

guess thats all for now.

Rock on people !

rant on

2009-03-23T00:25:00.000+08:00

i know its been ages since i updated my blog and i am sorry to those who have been expecting something from me to be written.

if you knew my whole situation you would understand why i havent been in the mood to write . i know people say that when you feel down in emotions you should write it to make it feel better but seriously i had no mood to face my dear little ole blog.

the emotions that i have been feeling for the past few weeks have been really complicated. you could say that it is too hard for a 19 year old like me to understand. i have been trying to take this as maturedly as possible but break down at the slightest things that reminded me of the times i had with him.

i know that the both of us had learnt a lot from this short stint of a relationship and we both care a lot for each other . to put it spiritually , God has taught me a lot in this too. i learnt how to be humble to summit to someone and to depend more on myself instead of living up to other people expectations. why didnt this relationship continue you may ask? just to put it in exact words like he said ... we are both on different pars and levels of expectations for a relationship and it will never come to the same level. he in fact is less matured in some ways and i am in my ways which would never be compatible to each other.

I have been thinking loads about this that at times my brain just felt that it wanted to explode. it really has been too hard on my frail body . i lost sleep , i cried my eyes out and even yelled at the top of my lungs . my housemates, who normally dont really care about me were even shock and well came to my aid and were there for me .

from one discussion with a a friend we have discovered that asian values towards friendship and the british values are different. british people not to offend anyone are well not willing to go out all the way for a person and care, not as much as an asian anyway . i mean yeah there are those asian which can be selfish too . but seriously people it was a really touching experience when some brisith people went all out for me and were there to support me . i nearly cried and was really touched ... especially when my ex tried to change and open up to me . that feeling is really indescribable.

overall i do not regret in any way that i was in that relationship as it was a really interesting experience . as quotes say ... life would be boring without the ups and downs.

i guess thats about what i have to rant on til next time ;)

heart slices

2009-03-03T20:51:00.001+08:00

our hearts made as a whole
each day pieces are affected
happy or sad
they come and go

the drama of it all
when it doesnt work out
the way you want it to
making you tremble and fall

a slice has been cut
right out of that space
from your reasons
there was no way to rebutt

you, in fact ripped that slice
crushed and tred upon it
without the slightest care
there is nothing you can do now to repay the price....

the unexpected

2009-02-16T06:26:00.000+08:00

you came into my life
in an unexpected time
when my moments were bliss
and my social life at prime

this strange thing happened
and all of a sudden
my emotions went havoc
but one in particular sharpened

I didnt know what to do
was lost and confused
as to whether the signs
you gave were clues

then came that auspicious day
where btoh our actions gave in and couldnt say nay
and as awkward it may seem to be
I do hope it works out between you & me

this was the poem that i wrote for my dear ...for valentines day .

it was a great day .... we went to bute park for a little stroll,since i have never been there. we walked by the river it was really sweet. then we had to hurry to canton which is quite a walk away. there was an art cinema there called the chapter.

we watched a film called Gardens in Autumn( french film) whereby it was based on frnech ministers being disposed off office and had to lead normal lives again. the movie was awfully slow . me and tim felt bored and hungry. hehe.... but we managed to survived through it . then we had lunch at the theatre's cafe, walked back to my place to collect my stuff.

then we went over to his place to watch rugby . wales vs england.wasnt too bad actually . the guy Sakey who scored for England did a really good run, eventhough he was behind the two other welsh players. then he cooked dinner for me ( mango curry chicken ) , i made pech crumble for dessert . it was really delicious !

thats about it guys ... all i have to say

slow steady

2009-02-05T21:39:00.000+08:00

heya guys !

back again its been snowing in cardiff and its been awesome will upload the pics soon . just wanted to write about my weekend trip to london again !

you guys must be wondeirng this girl has gone nuts going to london like so many times in a row ! but oh well it was a great trip since i got to watch Les Miserables.

it was awesome ! i really loved it. i grew up with those songs from young and really appreciated them. thanks dad for letting me hear them from young !

we had malaysian food at malaysian hall! it brings back the meories .... i miss malaysian food ! the ones you can get off a hawker stall. loses for being in cardiff .... dont get me wronf i love everything else of cardiff its been great .

this dear hyped- emotioned girl has already got her second half and shes content with everything she has now .

slow steady
As elders always say slow and steady
wins the race
and for a fact couples
should take their relationship at that pace

Rushing into things
causes the excitement
to fly out the window
what else would you have to look forward to ?

appreciate the life
you lead each day
cause it is
God's gift that you are alive today !

snow snow !

2009-02-03T09:09:00.000+08:00

its snowing in cardiff !!!!

weeeeeeeeehhheeeeeeeeeee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everything else is going well tooo !!!!!

lol

hillarious ! hyper !

question, suggestion

2009-01-27T01:36:00.000+08:00

Even being in this situation
does not make it any better
cause of the unwillingness
of communication.

you leave me in confusion
as to what we are
as our actions
speak different from our words

do i have the right to question?
whether we truly are
could you quickly
make a suggestion ?

bliss

2009-01-20T17:03:00.001+08:00

apologies guys i know i havent been blogging in like a while

i have actually been learning quite a bit of life really on how you should really apprieciate the little things that come by your way. the friends around you , little gestures that people do for you, even a great day and bonus if there is a great scenery in front of you.

God has bless me with this loving group from friends from second and third year. they make me so at home as if i have always belong. there should be more people like this in this world . encouraging bunch they are and always happy, there is never a dull moment.

i have written as my new years resolution that i would treat guys more as friends rather than prowling about for my next mate. my friends have been really supportive of me by guiding me through it and making sure i do not fall. they have been honest with me and although it caused a little tension here and there our friendship stayed. that was how strong our friendship were and how willing we were to work at it.

all i can say is that life has been treating me well .... with all the lessons i am going through and stress of workloads starting to pile up again . i am yet content with my life and everything has been fulfilled .

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. . .And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. - excerpts from 1Corinthians 13;4-13

a beautiful few days

2009-01-10T07:31:00.000+08:00

lol everything i did this week was just a bliss and i was really really happy

i dont know why but i have never been this happy

the whole week i have been content with what happened.

Monday i spent the whole day in the library just doing my work and i finished the majority of it so was really rpoud of myself.

then the whole of tuesday i gave myself the day off which i went to the musuem with Dr corrie in the afternoon then we had lunch after. i really enjoyed it. andrea messaged me to call out for help that he was sick so i decided to visit him later. i did my laundry while going to Lidls. got it all done in perfect timing. then at night went to John Dent's house for dinner this time was to cook for him and his flat mates. i cooked curry and rice . xiu mei stir fry veggies. then we has marble sand cake with custard for dessert. it was excitting cause got to meet new people. nicholas hibbert-hingston. interesting guy to talk to . exploring the areas . there is a posibility of something more or maybe not ... it really doesnt matter. itood friend alto would be good to have him as a good friend. even John Dent is a good friend too. that day i invited dominic and andrew over too. they enjoyed themselves as well . man i really felt content and fulfilled that i could have donethings for people.i just felt that my life was really great as it is and that i didnt waste a day.

wednesday i woke up with the morning doing my work, then afternoon i spent the whole day with nicole corbit which was really enjoyable cause i had lunch at her place and then we went to town shopping for a bit. i bought a pair of flats for 3 pounds i really cant believe my luck . they were so cheap :) . then Dr corrie came to pick me up to stay at her house for a day . which i found was most relaxing . i got to watch the news and spend time with her. we had a salmon pastry for dinner. it was really delicious ! and i had the best sleep ever in such a warm comfortable bed.

came back on thursday morning. did more work at home and then at night went over to John dent's house again for dinner which had tim harvey, laura davie and her boyfriend over.we had a a baked potatoe pie with peas . then we had to plan nick's party which was this sunday . they came up with this politically incorrect party .... i dont even know what to dress as ! theb after the planning . me and john watched this french film which was really interesting.

then friday came round ... john woke me up for prayer meeting but i just couldnt be bothered to go cause i felt so tired ! then went back to bed . did some more work before passing up sunita's and my tort essays. then went to the library to take out a book and then came home. did some more work and then had lunch while waitting for tim coles to come pick me up.

i had a really a good day with him today . we went to watch the reader . it was a really deep and interesting film. i love serious films like that and glad that tim shares similar interest. we then went for hot chocolate afterwards in Cafe Nero. we spent a whole lot talking . then walked back to my place to rest a bit before we went for dinner at George Pub . that was where tim met one of his old friends josh . he was a really nice guy , then there was this guy chris there who really looked like pete wentz from Fall out Boy. then after dinner we left that pub to go to crwys pub for a beer. he had a brains and i had a heinikein. the whole day we alternate to paying . he paid for the more expensive stuff and i paid for drinks all day . hehe a bit unfair to him really .

thats about my week so far i suppose . just felt like blogging to share my happiness all around !

Be Happy and Make the most out of your days people !

manchester & london

2009-01-05T07:36:00.000+08:00

hey guys, to let you in on my holidays

Manchester

i would say it was a really homely holiday and anna's faMily were really warm and loving. the food was pretty bad but became better as the days passed , i didnt complain of course i just ate .

anna's twin (kate)was really matured and nice , she really made me feel as if i was wanted. John- their younger brother who is 9 was so so so cute . he had a tumour in his head last last year which turned out to be cancer. but he is ok now . the treatment however stunted his growth and he now has to inject himself everyday with growth hormones. i tucked him to bed at night everyday . it was such a joy to have a younger sibling for a few days ,lighten up the parents load. rachel is the younger sis doing her a levels now . studying french, politics and english lit.b i talked to her about harry potter most of the time haha. shes a nice girl. she fell ill during christmas so she didnt enjoy it as much but i made sure she was as happy as possible since being sick and alone is no fun. the father ,

dennis ( the father). is a really fascinating man to talk to . his fire for God is so huge . his passion for Thailand is really big. he was so happy for christmas since we had so much thai people over and he told me he was really proud of me for being so friendly and being down to earth and his advice still rings in my head ,saying that i do have a gift of making people feel at home and wanted.

the mom- jane is a lil hyper ....hehe .... cause she worries like my mum and speaks really fast as well.---- guess thats where anna got it from. i even met some of anna's relatives who came from south london ( like their nanny for example ) she is a lovely lady ,spent the afternoons chatting with her and getting to know about their histories.

on boxing day , anna's family brought me on a canal boat which one of the relatives on the dad's side own . it was excitting since i have never been on a canal boat before. and we had smoke salmon and salad for lunch it was really good. went to the city twice, visting china town during one of the visits - but going out was nothing excitting. the lines were really long and i didnt feel like queing to buy anything so i hardly spend any money in manchester.

London

took the early train to london arrived at 12 ish . waited in the station for an hour for eu joe and pei xia since they took a later train . derek was there to accompany me too ( he came down from liverpool) . so we spent time catching up and talking. then they finally arrived so we went to the hotel which was in zone 4 in newbury park. joe's aunt gave up her reward points for us for a room in holiday inn. it was a really comfortable hotel for the four of us . Thank you aunty !!!

i slept with pei xia and derek and eu joe slept together. the first day we didnt really do anything we were really hungry as all of us didnt have lunch so we had like early dinner late lunch at 3 something. then after went back to hotel and talked and played cards together. pei xia bought a map that was meant for cars which prove to be useless since it would look silly if we openend it up in the middle of the street.

the second day which was 30th dec - we went to covent gardens in the morning. the guys didnt really enjoy it since they werent shopping kind. that was where nithi met up with us . joe had to sacrifice for him and slept on the floor with comforters. in the afternoon we just took a really slow walk by the thames and took a lot of pictures of london bridge. sat in a cafe for a warm drink for it to get dark since derek wanted to take london bridge when it was dark . it was beautiful ! i am so glad i spent time with derek cause his camera was so sharp . he really took care of me which was really sweet of him really ! hehe. dinner time sunita took us to a malaysia restaurant . so i had my hokkien me XD, i had teh tarik too , others had fried rice and nasi lemak.

on 31 st - we went to madame tussauds musuem it was 20 pounds !!!!! but we got a discount ! from 30 since it was a public holiday they charged higher. once .... will never do it again ...... it was alright i suppose . taking pics with the wax figures and there were two rides inside. 1. chamber od horrors , 2. sort of like a disney ride like its a small small world ride in disneyland. then the afternoon we went to oxford street .... the shops were amazing ! ! so huge !.... we thought it was new years eve so we spent it on quite an expensive dinner eating at a steakhouse . 20 pounds too ! it was pretty good though although the waiter didnt really like us

we stood in the cold for 3 hours near Big Ben and Westminster parliament, watched the fireworks from the london eye it was really pretty . but definitely not worth waitting in the cold ! then later the train stations after were chaos and hectic ! we had to wring each other arms all the way to make sure no one got lost. we all made it in one piece. we reached home at 3 ish in the morning.

woke up on new years day at like 12 ....we decided to explore parks . so we went to green park , walk by hyde park , and managed to go into harrods ! it was huge ! and amazing i have never seen so many branded stuff ! eujoe and derek bought chocolates for 16 pounds which was like woah that is expensive ! just for the name sake and brand.we went buckhingham palace and queen victoria's memorial . we took a lot of photographs ! i cant wait to show you guys !

i know this really is a brief story of london .... i dont know how else to tell it though

but i totally enjoyed my trips and would do it again ! i was planner for london and it worked out !! hope to do it again !

By the way guys

HAPPY NEW YEAR and hopefully 2009 will be a great year for you all !!

updates

2008-12-22T20:27:00.000+08:00

more updates for you guys !!!

i needed to blog about the thursday before we broke for the holidays . me and my french housemate jules and three of his friends we decided to go clubbing at walkabout. i really dressed up for this occassion. elise even did my make up for me . i couldnt believe that i looked so gorgeuos.

the club was fine but the music sucked loads though . i managed to drag xiu mei along. i managed to get some heads turn and some attention. like high-fivinga guy during the sex is on fire song ( he didnt look to bad , although i think he was cuddling his girlfriend around her waist on the other arm)

wanted to meet up with gaz( my closest housemate) at the club since he said he was going to be there. but we couldnt find each other.we texted each other a few times then after a while he stop.

reached home at about 4 ish . i waited for gaz and wil to get back. gaz was slightly drunk and he surely needed help. we sorta got into an arguement its sad , he almost wanted to punch me . man i just wanted him to know the thing laura told me cause i didnt want to hurt him but ended up hurting more when i told him. dont know whether it will be same

went to watch madagascar 2 it was ok. baby alex was cute. and the big and chunky song. no offence to the movie but i fell asleep mid way through it for a while i think mainly cause i was tired.

this dec hols i have been really sick ...i had this nasty flu and cough that just weared me down and i slept a record of 18 hours non -stop . Sonia my darling friend has been looking after me , cooking for me. was at her place at arbedare hall from sunday to wednesday.

then wednesday i decided to go back since sonia was suppose to go to london the next day.xiumei came back from bristol that day . i cooked dinner for the both of us and then went over to her house to sleep

well thursday basically got my library fine sorted and then spent the day with xiu mei and her friend. went to amy o' brien's house . its really huge and lovely. we had dinner at chiquitos at night. had these salmon fishcakes which tasted good

friday i came to manchester .....

will update you guys soon

celidh

2008-12-14T01:03:00.000+08:00

Alice, Emma, Bethan ( my host family for the first week )

Xiu Mei
Gareth Scourfield ( my housemate, closest to me)

Rebecca & Xiu Mei

Ben Russell Smith & Ed Moss

Nicole Corbitt

i know for a fact now that my blog has just been a place to upload my pics . but i should stop just doing that really and use one entry to blog about my whole emotional being . there will be a flood of entries today.

the Celidh was a brilliant experience since i have never barn dance before and have always dreamed of doing it . i got to do the couple dances with Ben . haha he was such a show off ! he wanted to tango across the room everywhere.

i love dressing up ! everyone looked so gorgeuos that evening. my mood for that weekend was seirously hyper and happy and everyone thought i was nuts basically.

CU houseparty !!!

2008-12-03T06:23:00.000+08:00

Hebron Hall , Dinas Powyrs

it was on last weekend and i had a blast !
(1) getting to know people

(2) learning more about Holiness & God
(3) exploring more of wales
(4) seeing nice scenery

(5) taking memories home

overall i learnt a whole lot about the camp and even realized somethings which i should have without the camp but the camp really opeend up my eyes to some things

i learnt quite a bit of what the bible thinks of homosexuality and learnt how to approach these people and not judge them for who they are.

spenta bit of time with the people i love and gotten to know them even more

God I thank you for this great opportunity !

penarth beach

2008-11-26T02:02:00.000+08:00

me and a bunch of friends decided to explore wales a little more and we decided to take a beach trip just to see the sea ...... you guys probably think we are nuts cause its like winter now and we went to a beach yeah ....

that day turned out to be one of the coldest days as well we were freezing

Our journey began at Cathay's Train Station at 2:10pm on a Saturday afternoon

Explorers : Me, Hannah Iqbal, Owen Bendor Samuel, Anna , Jean, Josh, Cameron, Nicole,Karl, Sonia

Our arrival - just wondering around the seaside area which didnt really have much sand . more rocks .

the guys started skipping stones into the sea. we girls went exploring and sat down among the rocks to relax and reflect. & take pictures .

The Awesome view ~~~!!! + a Sunset :)

The ten explorers who were freezing cold basically

The train ride home

Content and satisfied that i could spend a day with my closer friends here in Cardiff . We went to Hannah & Nicole's house for hot chocolate and snacks. and i decided that i would spend the night with hannah since my house gets rowdy during rugby weekends and mind you it isnt pleasant staying in when there are extra guys over.

bye for now til next entry i suppose.

birthday

2008-11-20T06:59:00.000+08:00

i know you guys must be wondering how come khareeza didnt blog about her birthday weekend .

i actually got loads to write about it .

it started on thursday night basically since me, audrey and xiu mei went to Dr Corrie's house for dinner . we all chipped in to cook . i cooked a minced meat , mixed vegatables dish with cheese mushroom sauce. audrey stir fried vegetables. Dr corrie made a tomato mince meat dish . then for desert xiu mei made cinnamon pancakes and we also had carrot cake, chocolates ...... i felt so full that night my stomach could have burst . i really enjoyed spending time in a cozy house .

then friday officialy started at 12 am when i opened some of my presents. got a book from Dr corrie . then dressed up in my black dress from dorothy perkins to class at 7.30 in the morning . then a group of girls from law which included Arina, Illy , Hui Ann and Sunita we went to chiquitas for lunch which was really nice . the food tasted good and sunita surpirsed me with a marks and spencer cake . it was chocolate and it was good.

then i came home and my housemate Kat surpirsed me with a cake . i love her to bits . we were just hanging out together and painting my nails while watching finding nemo . my day couldnt have gone better so far.

when 6 o clock rolled round it was time for my night gathering at a cafe called a shot in the dark . the drinks and cakes there are amazing. the company was even better . i really love my friends a lot here in cardiff.

slept over at Xiu mei's house which was great i had a great night sleep. then in the morning i rushed to city to get my new phone which i am really happy with it now . it caused a lot of trouble though cause orange is such a pain. attended a session of fools gold in mac church which was really enriching. then i went over to anna's to sleepover. we basically did work together and watch a movie .

i woke up in the morning and went to pontypridd which is one of my girlfriend's house. visited her church for a morning service and then went back to her house to chill and relax .her mom and dad are so friendly i really love them. she made a delicious lunch which consist of turkey meat , snap peas & pease boiled, red cabbage with cider sauce, baked potaoes & pumpkins, gravy and for dessert we had this flat chocolate and apple crumble.

i stayed over in arbedare hall from wednesday to thursday in sonia's room . she is a really nice girl from hong kong and well getting to know her better and better since we are spending a lot of time together too , really sweet .

then thursday night i went out with andrew lim ( studying pharmacy ) to Mangoes for dinner. i wouldnt say it was a date but he paid.hmmm well he does like me he has admitted it but well i have no interest in him at all.

on the other end of things, one of my housemates kat has moved out and it caused a huge turmoil in our house cause we least expected that she would move out . cause her attitude is laid back like me and doesnt really react to stuff guess she really couldnt take it anymore. sigh going to miss her really .... but i still have gareth .

thats another story ..... i really dont want it to come to pass but its happening and its growing on me pretty fast . slow down emotions ! you are going to give me a headache. i really have started developing some feelings for this guy and do want to see it come to past but at the same time there is that "huge barrier" in our lives .

the weekend before the day

2008-11-11T07:29:00.000+08:00

my weekend was great . friday night me , xiu mei and audrey cooked for three other guys. i havent had such fun with people before ... i was really hyper that night .The other people who were there basically were Alan Tay, Alan Chai, Lip Sing, Siew Ming, Kim. we went over to Lip sing's house. went to visit Shaun. found out that we both really click when we are just talking to each other one on one. he is uncomfortable when it comes to group but when it comes to one on one he seems really nice to be with.

On Saturday, my cousin came over to spend time with me. we had a great time just chilling, and talking to each other . i brought her to visit some of my friends~ which included Hannah Iqbal, Hannah Machin, Owen Bendor Smith, Xiu Mei, Lip Sing.

we went to town in the afternoon and we shopped a little. i bought a new top and fingerless gloves. she bought new underwear and new strack pants. it started raining heavily and so we took shelter in burger king. had onion rings and hot chocolate. we sat there for 2 hours. and we talked so much about loads of things. it was really a meaningful time. i love spending time with Kexian or rather known as Kex. haha i find its a really nice nickname to be given. i played poker for the very first time and i was the second last one standing ! i am so proud of myself :) . i actually enjoy playing poker now.

on sunday , i basically took her to highfields. she thought it was alright. we had brunch at cafe 37 all because of josh didnt want to have chinese.... sigh ....kex had her opinion on him. she left at about 3.45pm. had a rather interesting conversation with darren on msn . we always do . i love those times.

hmmm overall in general i have been thinking a lot lately since i am going to be a year older in less than a week's time. it is still my nature to think though ... oh well.... i am rather confused at this point about things in my life . but it is still under control.

halloween and oceania

2008-11-06T08:25:00.000+08:00

Claudia

Alan Tay

Illy

Some girls at the party

Chee Seng

The macbeth witches

a few new friends

My sister in witchood

Pretty devil

Shalene in her devil constume

and again

Drey

Cindy

some people i met

Oceania !

the club's invitation , massive dance floor

cam whore !

before entering the club . it was so crowded.

another girl pic

wrapping the mummy

Atmosphere of party

Girls who took me home from oceania

Lost??

2008-10-27T03:12:00.000+08:00

insecurities can be a problem, especially being in a new country and all. you dont even know whether you are appreciated for who you are. i know you guys must be wondering what is she talking about ..... she has a great life and is so privelleged to be in england studying.

in actualy fact i think i feel lost seriously ......

LOST....

on whether the friends are true
on the fact if i will be a significant light to the people around me
on which direction to take in life
on whether i would ever get "one"
on whether i am studying enough
on the church i should attend
on whether my housemates actually want to make an effort to be friends with me.

the past few outcomes with intereaction with guys havent been great and seem to leave a bad impression. i seriously question the fact of my being does it really irritate people ?

i know patience is a virtue but there is this rage inside me that wont go away.

must i change ....
hmmmm....sigh .....

castle and manor trip

2008-10-22T05:23:00.000+08:00

Me & Audrey

beautiful autumn

Castle ( lol i forgot the name of it )

fountain .

Castle entrance

Manor trip

i shall just let the pics do the talking

up and down the emotion pole

2008-10-19T08:05:00.000+08:00

i guess because i was sick which is the main reason why i was down .

but yet the friendships and socials that i have here have made it a whole lot better . especially some in particular which i really do cherish their friendship and being there for me . there is one in particular.he shall not be named yet but he plays an important role in making my day . even xiu mei was shocked that i became better just by talking to him. she was like you should talk to him more, its good for you .

and i spent the whole saturday with him . we barely did anything but yet we were so comfortable with each other . there were awkward silences between us but there was that safe feeling that i could be with him withtout having to fear anything .

i have no idea why but my family is in a straught with me and there seems to be no way to get them to talk to me .... sigh ....

almost forgot yesterday i experience an indirect discrimination . i had a cold whereby had to to blow my nose to clear it up and the people in front of me kept starring at me and passings notes which i saw read

" shes blowing her nose on purpose just to get attention and disrupt the class ."

i was like ...what the hell ! i cant even be sick and i get discriminated for being sick. i was sopissed that i actually wanted to pierce a knife into that guy's head since he was just sitting below me .

guess thats all

cardiff bay pics

2008-10-19T06:59:00.000+08:00

i know i have been on hiatsu for 11 days sorry guys :)

but i am back now cause well i was just waititng for pictures to be given to me in order to upload and write my blog entries .

what has happen since then ... well the usuals where i go to class and church and christian union ( which i truly enjoy ) .

oh by the way i have been ill people for 2 weeks almost .... but i am all better now . possibly why i havent been blogging.

i went to cardiff bay with 3 other girls and it was truely a beacutiful and clear day . WHich we were really thankful since we got to take really good pictures. Hui Ann, Xiu Mei & Audrey.

friends, fellowship and my room

2008-10-08T03:15:00.000+08:00

My dear little room

Illy
Audrey & Xiu Mei
Hui Ann

this was at malaysian social night which was pretty cool cause i got to see the amount malaysians in cardiff. the food was great too ! samosas and curry they were so nice . the games were funny although ourgroup frying dragons didnt win ... oh well you cant win everything. brought Josh along and he enjoyed it too.

Audrey, Xiu Mei & Zuzka

Audrey and Xiu Mei

on sunday we got invited to a church member's house for lunch. she cooked chicken with stuffing and boiled veggies with a delicious gravy . we spent the whole afternoon at her house playing taboo and uno. the view outside her house was just amazing, it was breathtaking really . that is why i like england so much . the view is so beautiful. then at night i went out to a pub calledthe funky budhha lounge where they had an open mic night. since Josh wanted to play his songs . i went to support him . ... his songs were good:). i drank two st miguels that night .. felt a little tipsy after

hmmmm i do have some regrets . you all must be thinking its only the second week how can you have regrets !?! but well it happened and i dont know what to think of it . dont worry its nothing serious but the people who do know me personally as a thinker would understand why . i overthink things and it can get annoying really .

well thats it for now ... til next time

england pics

2008-10-07T00:55:00.000+08:00

finally i get to upload my pics :)

Bath Sceneries .... so beautiful

Fashion Musuem

Queen Victoria's dress

Roman Bath House
Bath Abbey
Sun God the restaurant in the roman bath . chandelier is so big !
Venisan and rabbit meat sausage.

the theater in bath

spider web

the roman baths ceiling

thearter where i saw Shout

the roads .... beautiful huh !

houses in bath

Monks Retreat where we stayed for the weekend
food at Mill on the Rhodes
piggies at a farm.
these are pics of me at Bath which i really did enjoy myself . last trip before i see my family next year june .

tagged by emily

2008-10-03T00:26:00.000+08:00

Three names you go by :
1.Khareeza
2. kari
3.kk

Three screen names you have had :
1. kariwa
2. hypergal
3. kari

Three physical things you like about yourself :
1. My eyes
2. My nose
3. My hair

Three physical things you DON'T like about yourself :
1. Fats in someplaces
2. height
3. deformed toenails

Three parts of your heritage :
1. Chinese - teo chiew although i dont speak it
2. malaysian
3. china ( ancestors anyway )

Three things that scare you :
1. Heights
2. Losing the ppl I love & care most about
3. large spiders

Three of your everyday essentials :
1. my nokia 6270
2. contact lenses and the solutions
3. internet

Three things you are wearing now :
1. hard rock T-shirt
2. two rings
3. brown pants

Three of your favourite bands or musical arts :
1. the script
2. emo music
3. alternative

Three of your favourite songs (right now) :
1. i'd rather be with you by michelle branch
2. us against the world by westlife
3. say all i need by one republic

Three things you want in a relationship :
1. Love
2. same conversation levels
3. trust

Three physical things about the preferred sex that appeals to you :
1. height
2. fingers
3. the combination of the facial features

Three of your hobbies :
1. reading
2. Dancing
3. Travelling

Three things you wanna do really badly right now :
1. eat malaysian food proper ones !
2. Be with an opposite sex
3. fine really good friends

Three careers you're considering / considered before :
1. Psychologist
2. paedatrition
3. speech pathologist/physiotherapist

Three places you want to go on vacation :
1. korea
2. italy
3. new york

Three things you want to do before you die :
1. help or save the world in some ways
2. have kids
3. Travel the world

Three ways that you are Stereotypical a girl/guy :
1. Got boobs
2. Got ovaries
3. Got brains

Five people that you would like to see take this quiz now :
1. Kar mun sis
2. Yeang Shin
3. Yuyi
4. Jia Yuan
5. peony

the week as it has been

2008-10-02T18:03:00.000+08:00

with all the activities going on . its high time to blog about them !

on monday night i had grub crawl which is basically you go over to people's houses for free food and fellowship. i really enjoyed it since i met so many nice people there . this includes anna from manchester, joshua james morgan i forgot where is he from though, xiu mei from kuching, wai kit from KL , alice, nicki, sophie, dye, mark, tony, jacqueline

i would comment here that eventhough guys are younger than me they can match up in intellectual conversations. they are bothered to be updated with the issues of the world and contracdicting issues. and they do not answer you with just one of two words answers and actulaly bother having a proper conversation with you. well one in particular i think i am close to . i really do love talking to him. will update the progresses here in an indirect manner but yeah nothing personal. i would say though he gives great hugs.

tuesday well we went out for dinner at this place called mangos which the food as nice and went over to anna'es place to hang out and just talk.

yesterday , i basically hung out with anna in the afternoon for a bit and went to this international lunch thing which was held on park place then anna abandon our plans to go shopping which i was dissapointed since i wanted to buy a pair of boots so badly. oh wells, i uesd the internet in my housemat'es room since mine cant work yet because i have xp and they are using vista. oh wells got to catch up with a few people which i am glad. then at night they had CU gathering which was nice cause you got to see what to sign up for in CU. i signed up for music group and hall groups. i have to attend church activities also which i am not sure whether ill have the time to.

today the day just started and i am back in library blogging about the few days that just passed.

will update soon ciaoz

it has officially started

2008-09-30T04:30:00.000+08:00

well monday has arrive and i have started my classes . had my first lecture of lan law today. which was pretty basic but the fact is was late this morning for five monutes just made my day downhill.

no offecne cardiff but you are really giving me a bad impression. sigh you better get better or i would be really dissapointed in you .

i went to bath during the weekend which was the official last times i got to spend with my parents . it was seriously depressing i felt down all day . i cried non-stop bucket of tears. sigh but at least i got settled into a church which made me feel a whole lot better. but seriously ! the slightest things just make me wanna break down and i feel like going home. i miss home like crap.

anywayz people if you wanna text me or call me it would be 00 447531933089

ill upload pics later on when i have my own connection . right now in the library blogging so see ya guys around

difficult,stressful transitions

2008-09-24T19:59:00.000+08:00

hey all you people !

its official ! i am now in Cardiff , Wales !!!

it was all sudden . suddenly on monday i got my visa and my parents and i were deciding in spilt second that i was going to go to cardiff on the original date ( 23rd) .

i am now sitting in my parent's apartment (Saco) although i have checked into my accomodation i want to spend as much time as possible with my parents before they leave back for malaysia.

well the flight was long and weary but then again another miracle happened. Dad recognized the pilot's voice and said that it was a relative of ours. we told the stewardess and then the captain himself came to greet us and brought us to first class. i got to sit in first class for four hours ! it was so comfortable. and i slept so well there.

then there was a 3 hour journey by car to cardiff by the time we reached it was late and all of us was exhausted.

24th Septemeber
woke up to go to Law school to collect my folder on information for the year ahead. and then went to get my bank letters in order for me to get a bank account. then we went into town to buy stuff for my house which is really empty so to make it more homely . by the time we got back to the apartment we were all really tired.didnt even feel like going out for dinner so we cooked in the apartment.

i guess thats all for now

the best part of all of this is that i am certainly in guy heaven !

ciaozo

tagged by yuyi chan

2008-09-22T08:36:00.000+08:00

the last person to tag you is?-
Yuyi

2. What relationship of you with him/her?-
my high school bestie

3.Your first impression towards him/her?-
very very quiet, very blur ... but at the same time a very sweet and nice girl

4.The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you.-
me and her both can talk on the phone for hours about so many random things

5. The most memorable word that he/she has say to you?-
khareeza declared her love for me in front of burger king hehe

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will..-
be a lesbian .... lol ( we have been married twice ) haha ! love you yuyi

7.If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..-
i dont ever see we becoming enemies

8.If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on..-
she has to become a guy first haha then well maybe talk a little bit more with me in person haha

9.If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is..-
she will enever be my enemy ! shes too sweet

10.The most desirable things to do for he/she is?-
buying stuff she likes and laughing at her funny side

11.The overall impression to he/her is..-
very very sweet girl lar ...

12.How do you think the people around you will feel about you?-
hmmm well they would either hate me or like me . thats usually the case

13.The character you like of yourself is?-
Hehehe.

14.On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?-
hmmm, my arrogance?

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?-
someone who iswilling to give a helping hand to people , able to talk to them, likeable...etc...

16.For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them.-
well i am very thankful to have you guys around me and i treasure your love and care.

17.Ten people to tag:
1) Jia Yuan
2) Pei xia
3) Carmen tan
4)carmen khong
5) yeang shin
6) Kar mun sis
7) Peony
8)Jonathan
9)yoke han
10)Sean from aussie
18.Who is number 2 having a relationship with?-
well her boyfriend, friends and family

19.Is number 3 a female or male?-
female

20.If number 7 and 10 be together would it be a good thing?-
it would be a very weird combination. they are on both different ends of the world

21.How about number 5 and 8?-
hmmm wouldnt be a bad pair actually .

22.What is number 1 studying about?-
becoming a chef in melbourne

23.When was the last time you had a chat with them?-
well most of these i talk online almost every other day .

24.Is number 4 a single?-
Nope.

25.Talk something about 2.-
She is a very funny person and very animated . always makes my day

me oh so faithful gang :) love you all

2008-09-21T05:32:00.000+08:00

hey people who actually bother reading about my boring life.

i had a great day yesterday . glad i could spend just a whole day with the gang . i cooked for 10 people yesterday . and guess what it was .... our ole malaysian favourite Nasi Lemak. the meal consist of the rice, curry chicken( made from scratch) , sambal chili, hard boiled eggs, sliced cucumber, fried iakn bilis. drinks were so random as people brought quite a few bottles, dessert was fruit salad with yogurt.

people who came: Carmen Tan ( from uni ) , Kar mun, Theodore, Yun hsi, Seh yung, Wan pinn, Ally, Laura, Vicki, Yuyi.

we had Jia yuan on cam and it was so funny since coincidentally it was his birthday yesterday too ! he was so excited to see all of us.

we just chat and caught up with each other's lives . took a few pics in my place . and all we played mafia , which i was mafia thee times in a row lol and won three times. it was so funny . we were laughing like crazy at the remarks that happen in the game. especially with the ones yun hsi always getting killed since he was so noisy ! memories ... memories .... these are the ones which will last forever.

a group of them left since they had other stuff to do . the rest of us which consist of yun hsi, wan pinn, vicki, yuyi and me went over to wan pinn's house just to hang out. in the process of wanting to go there , wanpinn found he lost his car keys haha and turns out kar mun took them by accident. so we all walked to his house and got his spare keys the girls waited in his room while the guys got things sorted. nothing much in his house really . Wan pinn was playing his WWIII game while me, yun hsi , yuyi and vicki played ps2.

then 7.30 rolled round whereby we were suppose to meet up ally and laura for dinner. we ate at Wendy's . the burgers arent bad but they do give huge portions of fries and drinks.

went to yun hsi's house to go toilet haha ... the guys did anyway. then we dropped by theodore's house to get wan pinn's car keys then dropped vicki home then drove over to ss14 to the digital mall where wan pinn wanted to get something . we then met up with ally and laura again at Mcds , all of us just drinking water haha in Mcds. jsut sat and chat with ally trying to finish off her work on her lap top. then 11 something came and we had to go to seh yung's house since wan pinn wanted to borrow some dvds.

sent yun hsi back and this time i went to use the toilet haha XD. then the good day ended ....:)

i seriously had loads of fun !

I AM REALLY GOING TO MISS ALL OF YOU SERIOUSLY ! DO KEEP IN TOUCH I PRAY !

WITH LOVE TO MY GANG

I REALLY TREASURE THE TIMES WE ALL HAVE

My darling sis - Kar mun :) love you always

Seh yung !!!!

Laura and Ally . my Babes

Theodore and sushi boy ... my guys :)

Carmen Tan and Kar Mun

Vicki

Wan Pinn

well thats about what happened till next entry

the week as it happened

2008-09-18T02:35:00.000+08:00

hey people ,

sorry with the lack of updates . just been pretty busy thats all .

monday i had to go through the troubles of getting my visa done . it was really a whole lot of work . and yes i finally got it submitted but yet there is still a setback ! my visa is going to take more time than expected to be processed, instead of the usual 5 working days its going to take 8-10 days which really suck ! there is a possibility that i might have to delay my flight and everything. cause of the stupid offer letter had to come so late ! Frankly its really turning me and my whole family's plans around. and mum and dad has been so fed up that they are taking it out on me which i really dont get what did i do wrong exactly

moving on to tuesday , i went to get my medical check up done which consist of medical check up, x-ray, bloodtest. then my cousin lydia came and we went to mid valley and just spent time with each other, went shopping. she bought me a pair of slippers from Vincci. she bought a few clips which looked really nice.

wednesday , i went out with yuyi all day i had the greatest fun shopping with her !. we had lunch in this restaurant called gasoline.the logos were nice. the food was not too bad. i dont think any adults would love to go into that restaurant cause teenagers mostly hang out there and they make you sit in weird booths or on the floor. i bought two tops: one that says stop global warming. ( yuyi i know you regret not buying your cupid shirt ! hehe) .she came back to my house for dinner and we watched wall-e and started laughing at it. it was so cute and funny !

I LOVE SPENDING TIME WITH YOU YUYI .GONNA MISS DOING ALL THOSE THINGS WITH YOU

ill upload the pics later just wanted to update my blog for you guys

thats about what i have to say ... laters

a great monday + picture updates

2008-09-10T09:14:00.000+08:00

well yesterday i was basically working out in the gym . then waited for 3 something before i called Seh Yung where he is after his class. he came to meet me in MV . we had Starbucks , the main highlight however was us catching up . i really did miss talking to him and finally we get to !

an extremely down to earth, laid back guy , both of us belong to a gang where everyone can just be themselves without any prejudices ( mostly consist of Samad people ) . the gang has been around for 5 years now. we could talk about every single topic you could think of . there was no end ! which was brilliant since there wasnt a dull moment!

I AM REALLY GOING TO MISS YOU SEH YUNG WHEN I GO!

At the Osmond's final concert

me and sis

my happy family

My mouth hehe

Korean BBQ Dinner which was really delicious

mum and sis

my darling sis eating kimchi ! haha

and ole me :)

Dad & Sis

pretty empty week

2008-09-08T08:38:00.000+08:00

the past few days i have just been doing nothing much ... hanging around my house so i have nothing much to write about

got my hair straightened and cut for my trip to UK , hanged out with an old friend on the same day . Emily from Brisbane . we basically hanged out in starbuck, MPH , then her friend came. names Yaw Shin , pretty friendly guy and he told me a few childhood stuff about emily which were so cute and interesting hehe !!! we had dinner in a japanese restaurant! he paid ... awww thank you ! then we went to coffee bean for another drink ... i say lar we drink until siao ! i had to go toilet so many times !

then they wanted to get liquer since she was gonna go his house later . so busy browsing in wine section in jusco for an hour. and they bought snacks too .

they walked me home so sweet of them

but basic fact is that they were the ones who made my week .after so many people cancelled out of me !!! haihz ... (no i am not angry just that i am really bored staying at home , as i said to one person bored to the point i want to gauge my eyes out )

slightly worried that i still havent packed for england and i havent gotten my visa done i have to get them done asap !

all those resitting your exams tomorrow good luck ! May God be with you ! i have faith in all of you that you will pass this time !

i guess thats it for this entry

Morib beach

2008-09-02T12:45:00.000+08:00

part of the view
my adorable family

my darling sister
isnt she cute !
lol !
mua :)
the beach

i would say that this was a sudden road trip with the suggestion of my parents . We even dragged my maid who is afraid to get carsick. she put on a black face but then again she came along.

when a certain someone heard we were going there, he asked why of all places there ... hehe

well it was just something unordinary.

ill say that i had fun going among the rocks and looking for seashells, cause there wasn't any sea in sight for miles . many live crabs, snails and oysters.

going into the emotional side of me . overall i went through emotional rollercoaster hell. i wont go into intimate details . you want to know just ask me ... ill probably be sick of telling it to you but if you ask the right questions ill probably answer you .

peace you all

langkawi pics 2008

2008-08-31T08:29:00.000+08:00

Sis, Ke xian , Ke ying
A better pic
The view of Pregnant Lady lake
Isnt it beautiful ?
I could look at it forever ... its so pretty

Aunty Lay Teck & sis
My couz Adrian and his son Alden
My aunt Lay Teck
Dad !
Sis & Couz Ke xian

Uncle James & Couz Kevin
Smiling Uncle James
My couz Kev
Getting Frustrated in the restaurant ! ( seriously a fight of words broke out )
My little Nephew - Alden

Picture post

2008-08-30T19:57:00.000+08:00

emo is currently my middle name !

( i feel other people's emotions too, something which i am not very pleased of )

every single day i feel so blah whenever i wake up from my bed .

Thanks Carmen darling for lifting my spirits ... i really needed the time spent with you ! it made me a whole lot happier from the situation that i am going through .

(p.s. still frustrated over it and i really want it to go more smoothly)

well i update this post with some pics

20th August post exams & Bbq party

Yu wen !

Sunita camwhoring

Yoke han Yin Yen on Chia Boon

Evon, Yin yen , Chia boon , Yoke han , Bin Hui

eating dinner

Anita, Sunita, , Pei Xia, Joe Ryui Bynn

the usual girls - Sunita, Pei Xia, Anita, Lamia

Yee Lin, Bin Hui, Chia Boon, Evon

Pei Xia & Anita

The gang going crazy

Nicole

Plain Ole me

Sate , David, Pei Xia, Sunita

acquaintance

2008-08-27T03:50:00.000+08:00

You came into existence

at the most unexpected time

at the height of all the

stress and resistance.

we barely knew each other

yet there is that comfort

i feel

that i needed be no other

when i am with you

its certainly the wrong timing

and the wrong place

but my heart would not listen

and part from this yearning

langkawi and other updates

2008-08-26T15:39:00.000+08:00

well what can i say about this trip ... it was just weird overall ....

really mixed emotions about it

first of all it just couldnt stop raining for some reason ... and it really dampen my spirits .... i felt so lost and lonely eventhough i had my family and my extended family

thats why i said i hate hanging out with big group of people ... i really feel out of place...

lets see ... good things about this trip oculd just be listed

1. firstly the view outside my chalet was breathtaking

2. they had internet connection in my chalet

3. i got to spend time with cousins which i dont see or talk often to

4. gotten to know some cousins better

5. spent time with my nephews . they are so cute ! made me grew some muslces from carrying them everywhere lol !

6. ate good seafood.

i guess thats about what is good bout this trip

the bad side has too much of it to be written but ill write part of it

firstly somehow or rather everyone was getting on everyone's nerves which was so bloody annoying and nobody could agree on things to do.

mum had to bring in discussions which really touched sensitive points and somehow or rather one aunt was really touchy and weepy for some reason. it gets irritating after a while . i mean i am not here to preach ... cause i wasnt well off either , was really sensitive to a lot of things ... broke down a few times and retreated into myself a lot and didnt talk.

man could analyse all my family members and was really weird to see all the different characters.

iteniary for the whole trip was basically ruined because of the rain. but thank GOD that saturday was bright and sunny for one day and we managed to go island hopping

we got to go to the Pregnant lady lake .... hehe they say if you are a single women who wants to concieve you should drink the water there and you would .... as it was cursed by this immortal women who wanted to marry this human and they had a child but the child died.

then we went to watch and eagle feeding which was so brilliant ! they were swooping at our sides. they were so majestic . i loved the white belly eagles.

then i went fishing for the very first time ! hehe ! it was pretty boring actually ... i really dont have the patience to feel when a fish bite eventhough they were many. i caught two , one baby garupa, and another small fish which name i dont know of.

in the same afternoon we went on cable cars up into the mountains ! which was really scary i mean the angle of which it was going up , but the end of it was a beautiful view that you would never have expected ! it felt as if we werent even in malaysia anymore .... the view was seirously breathtaking i took a few pics ... ill uplaod them another day .

we came back on sunday night , dont know how or what happened but i felt a sharp headache on the plane . the kind that was unbearable! didnt tell anyone about it just beared with it . reached home at around 9 . couzs asked me to go out drinking with them . we went went to The Social in Bangsar which was next to hush. i had a mojito. conversations that night were deep and mostly about life and making decisions.

but they really did attack me a whole lot about my decision to go to UK ( as in i didnt want to ). sigh dig and dig ... two out of the three couzs now know the whole picture of why i didnt want to exactly go. we came back at around 2 something

talked with a guy couz until 4.30 am . serious discussions continued further.

this morning chun wei woke me up at 11 something as he and i were going out later jut to meet up .

we had vietanmese for lunch which beef noodle were great ! and we watched death race .

the cars ....

the main cast

Jammison Ammes and Case

Hennessy and Coach

would say the the movie was really predictable , a typical hollywood film . apart from the fact they used a women as the bad guy in very much a guy's sport .

content

2008-08-19T14:52:00.000+08:00

well you could say that i am pretty much content in my life .... pretty much every aspect of my life since emotionally i have been fulfilled .

went out with a few friends from july intake yesterday which i had the greatest time of my life ! i could be just myself and didnt even have to act different at all .... it was all pretty natural.... i had a fantastic day .

Hong Yee and I

the Group of us that went out together ( Geetha, Dhya, Hong Yee, me and Sam)

i am almost done with exams which is a good thing i guess stress levels are going to go down soon .... yipeee !!!

Wishes !!

2008-08-08T14:37:00.000+08:00

hey all ... just been studying loads in the library ... from 9-5 everyday ... since this week is study week .
Monday is the start of the horrors !!!

but i take this opportunity to wish everyone the best of luck ! and study hard ! i am sure everyone will do fine .... pray hard !

( lol pretty amusing today ... since i met a guy version of me ...... hehe XD )

just some nonsense

2008-08-04T15:40:00.000+08:00

haha ... well dream updates again lol

this time were two guys in my life .

first dream was that sate saved me from a dtich and carried me to the hospital XD .... a bit dramatic dont you think ?

next dream was with another guy that most of you dont know where we were just spending time walking on a sidewalk and came by a tree and were talking random stuff ... come to think of it i hardly remembered any details of that dream ....

last thursday had to go to Cargo area to collect a box from the airport . it had arrived form Aussie ... man ! Dont ever go there ! its chaotic .... its so huge and long .... and so many procedures to go through in order to just get a box. if i hadnt had a car i would have died .... which in the beginning i didnt since i went there with my maid by bus. ... i got sent everywhere cause people wasnt sure and also ended up getting conned by a taxi driver sending me to lcct instead of the kargo area... stupid fellar ! it cost me RM 40 . why did the buildings of the cargo and the custom had to be so far .... its just a bloody waste of time travelling up and down four times to get all the clearance done . met a US couple who came to collect their cats ... imagine they paid RM 6000 for them to fly to malaysia .... thats just crazy ... but oh well it happens when you are a pet lover. i went there at 2 and only came back at 11 pm ..... man what a waste of time!

oo friday was pretty much alright nothing unusual ... chun wei came and we hanged a little . :) ... lol ..... shant give any other details

spent some quality time with sate on saturday after class. i enjoyed it ... thanks sate. we should really do that more often . at least we had some meaningful conversations XD and i got to know more about you . although we did talk about weird stuff like death ... hehe dont know what made us start talking about that topic .

guess thats it

xoxo

more pics

2008-08-04T15:30:00.000+08:00

Balqis
Ms Nalina
Darling Carmen Khong
hehe XD Sate
Me just posing with sunita looking blur
Joanne
acting cute ( Lamia, and Joanne)
Lamia !!!
David ....lols

pics of HELP

2008-08-03T09:25:00.000+08:00

anita , sunita, barraca and me
yu wen
hui yi
darling zhi yan
Shamiso !!!!

me and my "husband" crystal haha
Pei Xia !!!!! my darling !!!

Sweet Anita

our consti lecturer
and again
haha his funny moments !
Derrick !!

Anita, Sunita, Pei xia, me ( basil in the distance behind hehe XD )

an outburst ?

2008-07-28T15:19:00.000+08:00

hmmm well just a bit on update on emotions side .

dont know how and why when i woke up in the morning yesterday that i was being shoot down by my sister so much ! its like she wanted to go against my every word.... stupid and we started arguing in the car . even lead to us arguing at home .... sigh ... then dad had to scold me for trying to ask whether i could participate in the 40 days fast thing for NECF ... haihz ... when i just could not take it anymore i rushed into the church hall and quickly sat down and began to pray with the congregation...

inside my sis still had to fight and get her way about moving seats ... in a way my mood was way over for me to take and so i blew ... tears just couldnt stop flowing down .... it was a mixture of feelings of the happenings that morning as well as thinking about how much i havent been doing for God lately.

as you can tell my mind is troubled and i have been thinking a lot lately ... which definitely is not good for a thinker like me cause ill think of all goods and bads about every topic... i have to learn to think less about unnecessary things ....

xoxo

Dark Knight

2008-07-28T04:30:00.000+08:00

went to watch dark knight yesterday !

WAS COOL !

i liked the movie . i love the Joker's role ....he was so into character ! My theory is that Heath Ledger wanted this to be his best role and not be judged any further ! it was a brilliant last curtain call. it was just brilliant! i really applaude his efforts ... it really must have drained him !

although some parts i must say that i will critic harshly. the scenes went a bit too fast . it could have gone slower to make it more effective... to bring out more emotions ....

christian bale .... looked slightly fat in the movie ... oh well .... guess he didnt work out hard enough ...

alfred's accent was so nice to listen to !

rachel - actress a bit stiff , could have been more relaxed .... and into character

harvey dent - the switches of scenes for him was too quick . the emotion of losing a love one could have been brought out better .

but even with these critics ... i still liked the movie ....

why so serious ? ....

xoxo

backsliding

2008-07-27T07:27:00.000+08:00

hey folks am back with another entry ,

well i feel bad in some ways that i turned down a good opportunity of a date . sigh i shouldnt have ! i wasted my bloody afternoon not doing anything when i could have spent it with someone .

oh well ... but then again going to SIB did calm me down a whole lot . i did have fun there ! Thank goodness .... the topic was premarital sex ... lol so funny ! the speaker was very frank and open about it which was great. i learnt more about it . but the main highlight of the evening was that i got to meet some of my old friends from SIB . it really reminds me on how much i miss that church . met people like Khye Shin , Philip again once more. lol when i said i wanted to meet some of the old guys that i met two years ago in SIB , Philip had to say " only want to meet guys lar "... which made me laugh. i told him quickly i wanted to meet boy girls and guys . haha ... wtv ..

the fact of my blog entry today was to express , how i comprimise for my parents in order to respect them but cant express my way of worship in like a church like SIB. i felt so homely there.... it felt as if i was back in Hope Brisbane . i think i would grow more in God if i were in that kind of setting more than being in a church like PJEFC. I see that Juni is also really enjoying herself there. i feel so dead in my christian life ... it almost none existent . God please help me , I feel that i have backslided so much that i am not worthy .

I need your strength to help me to pull through all this confusing feelings and from me thinking too much about life in general . i dont think my frail body can take it anymore .... strenghthen me and let me grow more .

Draw me close to you by Hillsongs
Draw me Close to you
never let me go
i lay it all down again
to hear you say that i'm your friend

you are my desire
no one else will do
cause no one else could take your place
to feel the warmth of your embrace
help me find the way
bring me back to you ....

you're all i want
you're all i ever needed
you're all i want
help me know you are near

drifting

2008-07-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

title sums it up ... i am practically drifting everyday... in the sense of being "there"but yet not there. some of my closest friends detected that i wasnt myself lately and they questioned me about it.

i guess its got to do with feeling the pressures of stress. in accordance for the exams which are around the corner, and in order to not take up so much energy i just put myself into drift mode when i am intereacting with people. man .... i am turning to be more boring than i should be....this is bad .

part and parcel of being a teen - young adult is going through peer pressures .... i think i am feeling that now in some way or another . dont get me wrong i dont miss the feeling of being tied down and emotionally i need the guy to support me . i think well its just kinda sucks being alone and listening to my girlfriends talk about theirs.( no offence to anyone , just voicing out my feelings and dont get me wrong ... pity is not what i need )

got my assignment marks back, pretty happy with criminal contract and lms but not consti. o expected more for that actually . nothing much i can do anyway ... they are pretty decent marks.... not like i really did badly or anything ....

More quotes from shakespeare that i adore !!

Juliet: I'll look to like, if looking liking move:
But no more deep will
I endart mine eye
Than your consent gives strength to make it fly.

Mercutio:You are a lover; borrow Cupid's wings, And soar with them above a common bound.

xoxo

a nightmare

2008-07-21T14:05:00.000+08:00

hmmmm i dreamt that i was in some sort of western place . that i was driving and i knocked and dented my car in some sort of car park . there this invidulator who came with her board and was like testing me . and i had to be punish. worst of all a friend of mine was in the crowd watching. i had to be cane .

then next scene i saw i was hugging all my teachers from IES ( foundation in aussie )

it was just a very weird dream.... i really dont know what to make out of it

a recent quote from Romeo & Juliet play ... " young man's love lies, not in their hearts , but in their eyes."

been thinking a lot about life in general lately . kinda makes you more depress about it though

oh well ...

ramblings

2008-07-20T15:06:00.000+08:00

well ... i spent the whole day at home until around 5 ish . studying mostly !

mom called me and dad to go to Lake Garden for the flower festival. the flowers were less this year ....sadly.... No Tulips !!!!! like how they had them last year.... ill post the pics when i upload them ... lazy to now . the lanscapes were nice though and they had a vegetable and fruit garden donated by the prime minister's wife.

pretty hillarious to watch my mum and dad squabbling a bit here and there. they were acting like kids ... hehe and sulking .

later after we went into lake club to have dinner... mum's say again to have japanese .....so we just agreed since i was freaking hungry. dad finished his unagi set in like 10 minutes, really clean..... lol .... the green tea ice cream was really nice, not too sweet and it wasnt watery.

my mind is currently obsessed with Romeo and Juliet after its spark from sis's play . reading the actual play now. engulfing myself into the brilliance of shakespeare's language.

tragedic love ......
til next entry

xoxo

Brillianto

2008-07-19T15:45:00.000+08:00

i had a brilliant day !!!

i went out with yuyi to bangsar to go shopping !!!

We went Zara Crazy!!! cause that was the only store there that was worth going to.i bought a blue tank top from there for RM 19.90. I wanted her to try Miss Read Delicious !!! we had Duck Confetti Spaghetti and we had the chocolate brownie with the chocolate sauce and vanila ice cream. mmmmmm ..... my favourite . we had those for lunch

Thanks yuyi ! i really had loads of fun shopping with you !

the most excitting thing was my sis's school production . it was sheer brilliance . they did Romeo & Juliet . They had input chorus speaking, choir , dances, jester poems which really made the whole production a good thing. i was amazed at the chroegraphy. the dances were good. the play iteself was good, especially some characters. like the nurse for example she really did play her role well . there was a part where juliet's dad said that she died . he said it in a manner so robotic that everyone found it to be hilarious and the whole audience started laughing. Romeo was a good actor although his voice was slightly girlish. juliet could have done better she was rushing through her lines. the decorations were so real and nice. the projections of scenes on the OHP was nice too , they found some good pictures off the internet of verona. Sis was in the choir and they sang really well :) am so proud of her. the songs they chose for the emotional moments in the play fitted exactly to the desired feeling. the acoustivs were bad though ... terrible in fact. but the storyline and the flow of the entire thing was just wonderful.

i really want to see it again , told sis to get the DVD of it. she was confused on what so great about it haha haha ....

i basically just loved every minute of it.

thats it

xoxo

another dream

2008-07-17T00:38:00.000+08:00

hmmmm weirdly enough i am remembering all my dreams.

i dreamt i have had an english boyfriend who was quite geeky looking but somehow we were very close.

then all of a sudden he breaks up with me in the nicest way possible. and we still remain good friends

weird right

hormonal man ...

xoxo

picture post for 11/7

2008-07-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

i had my first ever try of Carls Jr ... it was so delicious and humongous portioned!!!!

SEE !!!! isnt it big ? i have to even share it with Yuyi .

i love the star logo its so cute :)

thanks girls for a great outing i really did enjoy myself eventhough we didnt really do anything ... but just talk

weirder dream

2008-07-14T14:32:00.000+08:00

hey guys am back with another entry .... with a dream which i found to be weirder .

i dreamt i was in some closed car park . i was holding my keys , i am guessing that i was gonna go to my car and then i see Mickey mouse couple ( from our class in a distance )

all of a sudden this indian man , wearing the petronas station work shirt comes up to me and keeps demanding for sex , and wants to go out with me . i was freak so i started to run even in my heels. and kept calling the Heng Yin ( the guy of the couple ) but they did not respond so i was desperate and ran outside the car park . i see a group of white skater dudes huddling around and yelled out to them . whereby one of them stood up and said stop Harrassing my Girlfriend .... and then stood in front of me to try to protect me.

i woke up feeling rather weird mind you .... i havent even seen the white guy who protected me before ......

oh well

i seemed to be writting a lot about my dreams lately .......

a walk down memory lane?

2008-07-13T08:19:00.000+08:00

hmmmm weirdly enough it was my subconcious mind who did it for me.

i had a very long dream

first was that i was in my old primary school with Siu Theng ( my best friend from primary school ) & Seong Seong ( another good friend ) . we were just going class by class looking at all the teachers teaching and talking about them , somehow or rather we were wearing school uniforms. some of the teachers present werent even from primary school and from my secondary school which yeah its out of place. went to the canteen and bought food and whilst walking back i voiced concerned that we were going to be late for class?? huh?? Ss then reassured me that miss Chen wouldnt mind ( she was my primary six form teacher ).

somehow or rather the next scene was at my house and it was in my room, whereby there was so many girls staying at my house that night. my cousins from my mum side were here. we had some chili for dinner or something then later in the night most of the adults who ate suddenly went into seizures for some reason. we all panic of course . one of my uncles who is currently obssess with just eating steam and healthy foods who didnt touch the chili did something and suddenly they were all find. then we went back to the usual talkings in my bedroom and suddenly this cold wind blows pass . it felt very weird. thats when i went to the window to have a look ( by the way my windows have grills and mosquito netting ) , the next minute i knew the mosquitoe netting had diassapeared in a flash of a second.

then i woke up back to reality , feeling body aches , having had a restless night and more bruises on my arms

tag again

2008-07-06T13:35:00.000+08:00

Instructions: Remove one question from those below, add in one of your own (personal), to make a total of 20. Tag 10 people in your list at the end of this post. Notify them.

1. At what age do you wish to be married?
25 - 26 i suppose

2. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you'd take and why?
Carmen Khong !!! Yuyi !!!! and Pei Xia !!!! ( sorry didnt choose others cause well these are the first three names to pop into my head )

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
susrprisingly Japan for me too :) ( we could go together carmen and yuyi )

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
being with someone....

5.How would you like to save the world one day ? (could be big or small )
well wanna go to a village to spend some time with the community and help them.

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
people i love the most around me

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
save some for a rainy day, shop til i drop , donate some to charities

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
depends on how long we have known each other ... but eventually yes

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
a good friend, someone i can depend on , someone who knows me in & out

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
he has to have the same intellectuality as me, willing to talk things out, loyal, kind , someone who can stand my emotional outbreaks.

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
greedy, arrogant, people who ignore you on purpose and leave out people , dont like people who take drugs

12. If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
yeah i wish i could especially in High school !!!

13. If you are the (mayor) in a city/town, what would you possibly change ?
make the roads more even and better

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
God, my fmaily and friends

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
yup..... i buy something eveytime i go shopping which is pretty often

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
i wish to have more humility

17. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
God, Yuyi , Carmen Khong !!!! Peony

18. What's your weakest point?
i think i am too sensitive and emotional

19. What's the thing that you're most proud of?
a bit general this question .... hmmm well piano praticals i got merit ?

20. Would you rather have a god-damn ugly (like really cacated lizard looking face) but nice boyfriend or god-damn nasty but handsome like hell boyfriend?
hmmmm well ill go for personality if i had to really choose

I TAG:
Yuyi !!!
Divya
gabriel
Jonathan
Wong Kar Mun
Yeang Shin
Joel
Peony
Wilson
Carmen Tan

mooting

2008-07-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

man the experience was so nerve wrecking .... i mean to be put under that kind of pressure definitely not my thing -_^ hmmmph .....

well made two major mistakes which i shouldnt have whereby i feel so stupid at the moment . i feel like slapping myself for that one. but yeah as people say the past is the past and whats over is over. and i shouldnt also be too hard on myself.

at least i can account for the fact that i did won the case i got appeal allowed :) Yay !!!

but at the same time there seemed to be the trend for today for the appeal allowed.

anywayz i guess overall have mixed feelings on this and well ill have to wake up to a new day tomorrow refresh and put aside what happen today ....

xoxo

peace out

Food Bazaar

2008-07-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

hey hey people !!!

We had our food bazaar today .... was overall pretty tiring but i guess it was worth the experience ....

met a few interesting people along the way and manage to say a bit more than hi byes to them .... although i think we did come on a bit intimidating and scary . there was a guy whom Bin Hui flirted with ... hehe .... when we called him handsome he came back and bought a hot dog and cookies. i flirted with a black guy and i think he reciprocated ( now dont get the wrong idea i am not going after guys) ... he gave me two ringgit without getting anything .... awwww.... there was a guy which me and pei xia met at a biology class ... he called us intimidating .....lol......

on the other hand there were the rude remarks as well like shalini told me there was this girl who said you cant really make much from selling cookies so why make them in the first place..... people who give the weirdest excuse like they dont have cash .... left wallets elsewhere..... etc .....

PEI XIA !!!!! you were so adorable ..... and so persistent .... it was so cute :) was so happy to be able to work with you.... EU JOE ... haha your intimidating methods to make your "bros" to buy cookies was so mean but funny at the same time

Anita and sunita did the last bits at least they sitll helped out :)

Overall the law department of January intake 2008 was very cooperative ..... Thanks guys for all your efforts it really counts for Sichuan and Myanmmar.

Cookie Factory !!!

2008-06-29T03:13:00.000+08:00

unfortunately and i say it again unfrotunately i dont have any pics to prove the cookie making process.

as of the title , me and three other friends ( Carmen tan , Zhi yan , Yu wen ) were in my house yesterday baking cookies for the food bazaar sale that is going to be held on 3rd July in front of KPD .

it took us a greusome four and a half hours ..... i seriously dont ever want to see cookie dough anymore ..... am so sick of it i could hurl...... no offence carmen ( i love your cookies )

but the four of us did have some bonding time .... it nice to spend time with people you dont normally spend time with and with no "politics " involved too. after the factory process, we four decided to take a drive to bangsar to have dinner in delicious . we all had our pastas ... yummmm .... I spotted Zara on the way to the restaurant and yelled it out . Carmen Tan was so excited that she hugged me so tight !!!! lol !!! we went shopping in Zara for an hour . and i found an australian shoe brand in Bangsar Village .... NOVO !!!! yay !!! back to my old ways in aussie ....

thanks guys for giving me a great time yesterday ... i haven't had so much fun in ages ....

Taggy

2008-06-26T15:18:00.000+08:00

The tag consists of 15 questions, when YOU do the tag, add one more question to it at the end and bracket your name at the back of it... tag 4 people

1. Are you currently interested (in the boy-girl relationship way) in someone?~
i am interested .. but i am currently not with anyone

2. If given the chance, what part of your past would you change?~
well i would have eaten less junk food, didnt go to international school

3. In general, do you think physical or internal beauty matters more in a person?~
internal beauty matter more

4. Why did you choose your occupation/course?~
well.... my parents pushed me into it... but if i had to really say i really want to "save " some people

5. How much does money matter to you?~
i just need enough to live a comfortable life

6. How's life currently?~
the same ole ...ups and downs...

7. Are you a faithful/loyal person when it comes to relationships?~
in fact i think i am too loyal that the other party thinks i am clingy

8. What is the one physical trait of yourself you like the most?~
my face

9. What is the one physical trait of yourself you dislike the most?~
the little tummy i have

10. Briefly describe your dream car.~
cooper would be nice ...

11. Briefly describe your dream house~ mansion enough lar .... better if its near nice scenery.( beach or mountain)

12. What is the ONE skill you would like to pick up the most?~
surfing !!!

13. What was the last dream you had? (the kind you get when you're asleep LOL)~
the miost significant one was the technology wars

14. How often do you get what you want?~
hmmmm ... i think pretty often.

15. List out 5 positive and 5 not-so-positive things about the person who tagged you.5 positive~ shes cute and petite and cute!!
~ she has been there for me
~ motivates me to exercise and diet XD
~ ......and study ......
~ someone i can trust
shes pretty open which can relate to me

5 not-so-positive
takes things too hard on herself
repeats incidences a bit too many times
overparanoid ? ( in some ways )
not broadenning her circle friends ?
should accept herself as who she is ?( sorry carmen didnt mean to offend you in any way )

16. Why do you read my blog?~
to update myself on people's lives

17. What's the biggest highlight in your life? And your not so biggest highlight? (Sherilyn)~
currently well am going to UK soon ... not so bigg highlight would be having to pass exams first

18. What would you do if you happen to realize you can't get rid of your past? ( meLLe )
~i will face it , take it as a lesson for me to become a better person

19. What is your ideal date with a guy/girl? (Carmen)~
i just want a simple dinner with a person , sitting at home watching a movie together . *hints* picnic in the park ?

20. have you ever thought of getting married ? if so when ? ( Khareeza)
i have ... maybe around 25-26

I tag :yuyi , yoke han, divya, wong kar mun

major realization !!!!!

2008-06-22T16:05:00.000+08:00

i really dont know where to begin ......

i have been scarred for life in another way .... not the love sense mind you .....

i dont know what i was thinking .... or even how it happen ... it all just happen too fast ....

i hit another car while trying to get out of a parking lot in taman desa. i hit his side and my car's whoe bumper is now off .

i dont know how to descirbe this feeling but i feel awful and terrible.....

AAAAARRRRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!!1

in malay

2008-06-19T19:28:00.000+08:00

Survey in perlu dijawab dalam Bahasa Malaysia.

7 fakta tentang saya :
- saya suka warna hijau, hitam & Ungu
- saya suka membaca
- saya memelihara seekor anjing
- saya sekarang belajar di HELP
-hari jadi saya pada 14th November
- saya beharap saya dapat pergi ke England pada bulan september
-saya pergi ke sekolah antrabangsa pada sekolah menengah

7 perkara menakutkan saya :
- kehilangan orang aku cinta seperti kawan yang berharga
-tempat tinggi
- kegagalan
-pergi ke England
-labah-labah besar
-dirompakkan
-kesakitan teruk

7 lagu buat masa sekarang :-
adakah kamu? ( Cassie )
Lebih baik dalam masa ( Leona Lewis)
Kepanggilan ( Regina Spektor)
Kemulaan Keakhiran ( Spineshank)
Malam Ini ( Fm Static)
Dalam Kehidupan Ini ( Delta Goodrem)
Saya lebih suka berada dalam kecintaan ( Michelle Branch)

7 perkara yang selalu saya sebut :-
really ?
i suppose so
ill think about it
ooooo
serious .....
hmmmm
haihz

7 perkara yang amat bernilai :-
Keluargaku
Kawanku
Komputerku dengan Internet
Ipodku
Bantalku dari kecil hehe
kecil perkara orang buat untuk saya
Kenangan saya

7 “pertama kali” dalam hidup saya :-
keciuman
memandu
pergi ke Africa
pergi ke kawan rapatku rumah selepas 4 tahun
menukar passport baru tanpa ibu atau bapa
pergi minum arak di luar dalam Malaysia
mengalami kesseakan jalan raya semasas memandu kesendirian

7 orang bertuah (JAWAB TAG NI BALIK!)-
Wong Kar Mun
Divya
Gabriel
Jonathan Lin
Yoke han
Semua yang baca Blog ku
...........

i am at lost for words

2008-06-11T19:47:00.000+08:00

well all i can say is that i dont know who to trust anymore and i am lost at sea . what happened to me today just well its unexplainable if i event ry to explain it , it would probbaly go around in circles and it will be never ending. ... i dont know what to believe .

God please keep me strong during this vunerable period dont let me be torn down by this and let me prevail over this troubles.... there is person out there trying to break me down but let me be strong under your protective hands!

peace out people

xoxo

2008-06-11T13:38:00.000+08:00

Part 1 : On the outside
Name : Khareeza Koh Zhi Wei
Date of Birth : November 14 1989 .
Current Status : Single.
Eye Colour : Dark Brown.
Hair Colour : dark brown but i have sandy brown highlights now.
Righty or Lefty : Righty.
Zodiac Sign : Scorpio.

Part 2 :On the Inside
Your Heritage : Chinese.
Your Fear : No friends and family and heights.
Your Weakness : procastination, short attention span when it comes to studying.

Part 3 : Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : ugh.... mooting questionto solve , 4 hours lecture
Your bedtime : About 11 something to 12.
Your most missed memory : my friends from the gang .... :)

Part 4 : Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : Coke.
McD's or Burger King : MCD
Single or Group Dates : Single.
Adidas or Nike: Nike.
Lipton Tea or Nestea : Lipton.
Chocolate or Vanilla : more chocolate but i dont mind vanilla either :D
Cappuccino or Coffee : both

Part 5 : Do You..
Smoke : never ever
Curse : sometimes but not too often
Drink : yes i do .. i love to drink

Part 6 : In the Past Month
Drank alcohol : yes i have a glass of red wine.
To the mall : last sunday .
Been on stage : is mooting considered ?
Eaten sushi : Yes
Dyed your hair : .Highlight yes

Part 7 : Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game : nope.
Changed who you were to fit in : yes i do

Part 8 : Age
You're hoping to be married : maybe 25? :)

Part 9 : In A Guy/Girl
Best Eye colour : greenish, grey .
Hair colour : i love brunettes.
Short or long hair : it actually depends on how the guy's face looks like.
Part 10 : What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago :this tag.
1 hour ago : trying to connect on msn .
1 month ago :well in law ...so basically studying
1 year ago :trying to finish my first semester in foundation in QLD
Part 11 : Finish The Sentences
I love : brunette guys XD
I feel : people should be more harmonious with one another
I miss : QLD in some ways.
I need : more confidence when studying law
Part 12 : Tag 6 People :Yuyi,Carmen Khong, Carmen Tan, Yoke Han, Divya, Pei xia

List out 5 presents you wish for :
(1) PSP or Ps2
(2) money to buy clothes .....hehe
(3)certain people to accept Christ
(4)a boyfriend XD
(5) better friendships

well this is a record for me

2008-06-09T19:14:00.000+08:00

i havent done this before i have cried four times in a week .... that is way too many times in just a single week ....

well this was the main rollercoster last week. i was so emo i could barely talk and i didnt want to anyway . only certain people were comforts me which i could open too .... the close ones anywayz ( i am sorry that some of you werent included .... i will tell you guys eventually )

mainly cried cause of the university choices ... i mean i had loads of heated arguements with my dad as well as my mum .... it was like caridiff or leeds..... haihz seems like everyone is pushing me to cardiff !!!

i like dont have a mind of my own ..... sigh .... why am i such a pushover ! i should stand on my two feet ! and make my own decisions ! Dont blame anyone else ....

peace out people

xoxo

weird dreamo

2008-06-06T12:03:00.000+08:00

well lately i have been having awfully weird dreams.

i dreamt i was in some kind of gladiator shows where you have to pass levels to stay alive. and well look who was my partner... it was * drum roll * ....... David..... i wonder why . we were like injured and all and still had to move on in order to stay alive . there was one of the levels where we were both given plastic swords just to try to kill each other .... which of course is unsuccesfful but they counted it on strokes basis . And i "killed" david everytime .... *smug*...... hehe XD .... sorry David don't mean to .

another dream i had was that i was involved in some technology war and i was like married di ... saw ring on the wedding finger. i had this very worried expression on my face.... looking out through glass windows. yuyi was next to me . then a message was sent to us by this computerized air thing ... saying our " husbands" were nearby but hurt on the battle field. so me and her rush towards the exact location .... found them and started treating them and holding them in our arms . although their faces were blur to me though so i dont know who the guys are....

thats all

xoxo

Hillsongs !! and other events

2008-06-04T20:43:00.000+08:00

i have been so preoccupied with stuff that i havent blog about hillsong concert last wednesday :

it was the best feeling of my life... i mean i feel so refreshed in my spiritual life . it made me start to think of those times when i was still in brisbane where i could do this every week .... sigh those days are gone now... i am back in "uncivilized" malaysia in comparison to australia
the songs they sang were so beautiful . i shed a few tears and it really touched my heart. even with this concert i got to meet some old friends from SIB . eventhough they are younger than me ... but well we were close and i am glad .... it was Samantha !!!! she was someone who stood by me all my problems online and understood what i was going through . somehow or rather she was as opened minded and had similar thinking like me ....

man i felt so tired after that cause well i had strains on my body from jumping too much and lifting my hands too long in the air. but i was doing it for God and i am glad i did and gave my all for Him . so i feel satisified. i know i am guilty of straying a bit recently ... with uni life and all i guess it happens but i need to be strong and need to be more spiritual...

hmmm what other things that have happen ....

i went shopping with YUYI yay !!! at sungei wang ..... i bought three tops which i am proud of ..... ones purple with an emo fairy on it ... which is so me .... then there is this spaghetti which is aqua blue with flower prints and finally a green spaghetti top which was only RM 10 .. i cant believe it was only that price cause its material is really good !!! guess i really got a good bargain .

Thank you so much yuyi for such a great time i always love going shopping with you .... and want to go even more ... we always try things together and thats what i enjoy most !!!! love ya babes

thats all... for now

xoxo

2008-06-02T23:03:00.000+08:00

1) The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
a special person ... i shant tell

2) When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
yup always do ....

3) In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
it actually depends on whom i am with .... i can be both

4) Do you take compliments well?
er... actually not really ... i am really insecure about that

5) Do you Sudoku?
Yes. every since that crazy tuiion teacher who did sudoku everytime i see him.

6) If abandoned alone in the wilderness, will you survive
i guess... i think can lar

7) What song are you listening to?
Is it you by Cassie

8) Did you ever go to camp as kid?
yeah of course

9) What was your favorite game as a kid?
i love playing pretend .... hehe

10) If a person you really liked was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married, would you?
nope ... its not good at all

11) Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
it seriously depends on the religion...... almost did one

12) Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
Be pursued obviously

13) Use three words to describe yourself.
compasisonate , thinker, sensitive

14) Do any songs make you cry?
yeah especially when i am in emo state.

15) Are you continuing your education?
yeah i am in law school now first year ... its so hard !!!

16) Do you know how to shoot a gun?
nope ... never shot a real gun before

17) If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you'd grab?
umm a handphone, and important documents

18) How often do you read books?
i love to read ....

19) Do you think more about the past, present or future?
i think about everything actually ... analyse too much about everything

20) What is your favorite children's book?
enid blyton

21) What color are your eyes?
dark brown

22) How tall are you?
i am 5 ft 3 .... and not proud of it

23) Where is your dream house located?
somewhere there is hills nearby as well as the beach

24) Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
yeah i have with girlfriends

25) When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
where the heck is that ???

26) Where was the furthest place you traveled today?
US/ Africa

27) Do you like mustard?
Yes

28) Do you prefer sleep or eat?. Eat .. i worry too much to sleep

29) Do you look like your mum or dad?
mum i think

30) How long does it take you in the shower?
15 mins.

31) Can you do the splits?
used to not anymore . when i did ballet

32) What movie do you want to see right now?The other Boleyn girl

33) What did you do for New Year's?
with my family at home watching fireworks on eve then spent whole day with family at home

34) Do you own a camera phone?
yes nokia ....

35) Was your mom a cheerleader?
nope

36) What's the last letter of your middle name?
I

37) How many hours of sleep do you get at night?
around 6 - 8

38) Do you like care bears?
they were cute :) not anymore

39) What do you buy at the movies?
a drink mostly

40) Do you know how to play poker?
hardly

41) Do you wear your seatbelt?
yes i do pretty often

42) What do you wear to sleep?
depends on whether normally spaghetti top with shorts or a baggy shirt

43) Anything big ever happen in your hometown?
big high rise buildings growing from the ground

44) How many meals do you eat a day?
two

45) Do you always read Friendster bulletins?
used to not anymore

46) Do you like funny or serious people better?
depends on the situation

47) Ever been to L.A.?
no...i plan to go

48) Did you eat a cookie today?
nope

49) What are you thinking right now?
about someone and tomorrow

50) Tag 6 people in your list.

i) Yuyi
ii) yoke han
iii) pei xia iv) carmen Khong
v) Carmen Tan
vi) Divya

Finally :)

2008-05-31T13:35:00.000+08:00

hey people !!!

i know i havent updated in a while ... just been lazy to

I FINALLY HAVE GOT WHAT I WANTED FOR SO LONG :

CONTACT LENSES

finally ........

xoxo

tagged by Tan Jia Yuan

2008-05-24T09:53:00.000+08:00

-You-
Name : Khareeza Koh Zhi Wei
Nicknames: KK, Kota Kinabalu, Currypizza, Kariwa , Kari, Reeza, Khareez..........
Names you wished you had : well i wished i didnt have such a "malayish" name but overall am happy with it cause its unique.
What do people normally mistake your name as: plenty over the years.... mis spellings mostly like Carissa , Kariza, Karesa ......
Birthday: 14 th November 1989
Birthplace: Subang medical Center ( on the right wing )
Time of Birth : i think it was night time
Single or Taken: Single
Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

-Your Appearance-
How Tall are you : 5 ft 3
Wish you were taller : yeah i do ... cause my sis is almost same height as me and she is only 15 yrs
Eye colour: brownish
Eye colour you wanted: i am content with my eye colour
Natural Hair colour: black
Current Hair colour: i have sandy brown highlights
Short of Long hair: its at shoulder length
Ever dyed your hair a bizzare colour: nope ... have only highlighted it sandy brown twice before
Last time you did something Dramatic to your Hair: was cutting it short and dyeing it
Glasses or contacts : well i have both ( use both for different reasons )
Do you wear make up : yes i do the basic : foundation, a little eye shadow, lipgloss
Ever had hair extensions: no
Paint your nails : yes !!! its what i love to do ... i feel very proud when i have painted a good set of nails.

-In the Opposite Gender-
What colour eyes: well i dont want to be choosy but if i had to choose green :)
What colour hair :well personal preference brunettes ....
Shy or Outgoing: a mixture of both
Looks or Personality: Personality always prevails over looks but looks have to have some standard also .
Sexy or Cute: Sexy !!!
Serious or fun : a mixture of both
Older or Younger than you : 2 years younger or 10 years older XD
A turn on : hmm well when a guy does sweet little things for me , if guy's body part then fingers .....hehe.... lol
A turn off : a too egoistic person
Flowers or chocolates: both are just as well ... depends on the flowers and chocolates.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
Rap or Rock: both are alright
Relationships or one night stand: relationships
School or work : school i suppose
Love or Money: Love
Movies or Music : Can i have both ?
Country or City : a bit of both .
Sunny or Rainy days : it depends really
Friends or Family: both are important

-Have you ever -
Lied:yes
Stole something : yes
Smoked : never ever and never will
Hurt someone close to you: yes .... unfortunately
Broke someone's heart : yes i have ... a guy who liked me for four years ( i think he is still in prusuit)
Had your heart broken: yeah many times
Wondered what was wrong with you : yes definitely have
Wish you were a Prince/ Princess: i have when i was younger ..... not anymore
Liked someone who was taken : yes .. it really tore me apart
Shaved your hear : no NEVER !!
Been in Love : i guess so .... dont exactly know what it is !?!
Used Chopsticks: yes ... i am Chinese i have to use it !
Sang in the Mirror to yourself: yes i have

-Favourites-
Flowers: hydranges , lilies
Candy: this apple candy from Japan
Song : Is it you ? by Cassie
Scent: well i am wearing CK now .... but body lotion i use lavender
Colour: i have a few actually .... Green, Blue , Purple, Black , White
Movie: i have too many... generally love watching movies
Singer: if i had to choose maybe michelle branch
Word: i dont have a favourite word ... i need all words to write my poems XD
Junk Food: the Starbucks pretzels
Websites : i have too many to list
Location : hmmm well i loved brisbane ( but can't be partial cause going to England soon )
Animal: snakes, dogs

Ever cried over someone : yes
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself: my tummy fats
Do you think you are attractive : apart from the tummy fats yes
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose: pocohantas
Do you play any sports: badminton, Tennis , i go to gym mostly

-The rules-:

(1) Link to your tagger and post these rules

(2) List (8) random facts about yourself and tag ( 8) people

8 random facts :

(i) I play the piano and drums

(ii) my favourite kinds of books are crime , horror and fantasy

(iii) I am studying law

(iv) I don't like eating durians eventhough i am malaysian

(v) I am Christian and proud of being one

(vi) I am a bargain hunter when it comes to shopping

(vii) I only consider two out of six of my past relationships actual ones

(viii) I am afraid of heights

Tag:

(1) Yuyi

(2) Divya

(3) Carmen Tan

(4) Carmen Khong

(5) pei xia

(6) Gabriel

(7) Jonathan

(8) anyone else who bothers reading

thinking

2008-05-22T20:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm so many choices to make ..

(1)Choice to study hard since there is only 80 days left before exams ( it sounds freakingly scary )
(2) choice of which university should i apply you with well parents pressure to go to Cardiff in particular
(3) choices of friends whom i can trust more than what they are
(4) choices to stop my online obsession of being on too many hours a day
(5)choice to spend more time with God
(6) choice of not to succumb to temptations and not to cross boundaries

ok ... maybe that wasnt many but they are important choices which will affect my overall being as a person .... i mean it will determine who i am as a person . don't think i want to be this perfect person or something but its just gonna determine who i am going to be .

my love life. my career. my friends. my family. my spiritual life.

they are all at stake !

peace

xoxo

ups and tumbles

2008-05-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm ... i know i slept very well yesterday after a pretty rough week of not being able to sleep comfortably. mum woke me up this morning to go gym ... then when we were driving i forgot to put down the handbrakes ... man i am so ignorant and dumb . i burnt them obviously. then i left my clothes in the ladies changing room. ARGGGGH !!!!

man i came back feeling down all day ... terrible in fact i just wanted to curl up in a ball and just want everyone to leave me alone ... tried picking myself up but then i didnt... it just didnt work

hmm thanks to all those people who tried pulling me through today ... especially two people .. i think you know who you were

i think it was pretty obvious that i was down cause even my mum and my dad ask is there anything wrong... are you in trouble? in debt? having an affair ? .... weird lar

sometimes i just feel so alone and caught in my own world with nothing outside to look forward to

thats all
xoxo

Hyperactive day

2008-05-14T14:02:00.000+08:00

i was really hyper today . at least during LMS the lecturer was nice and complimented me indirectly eventhough she didnt say my name. i mean i am discovering more odd things in uni like certain people i can trust or not.

went out was at Mid valley ( again !?! )..t it was a really impulsive decision cause well one of my friends who has been rejecting all my offers to go out finally decided to go watch a movie with me today and brought another guy friend along too ... watched forbidden kingdom ... i really dont recommend you watch it if you are into those traditional chinese kung fu movies cause it just destroys the idea of it ! cause well who would have thought that traditional chinese fictional characters speak english . their accent sounded really weird too ... the jokes were pretty lame also .. the whole movie I was just watching the fighthing scenes ..

a hot guy actually checked me out today ... and when i say hot he was hot !! lol a white guy which was so my taste ... man the adrenaline rush was such a great feeling it just made me on cloud nine ... probably why my hyperactivity went up even further .... besides talking to my bestie on the phone made it even better :) lol my day was just really great

i need to calm down in a good way if not ill go nuts XD lol

xoxo

tagged by Karmun

2008-05-14T12:59:00.000+08:00

8 things I'm passionate about..

{1} spending quality time with my friends

{2} having a good conversation with someone

{3} Law ( sometimes .... it depends )

{4} Shopping

{5} music

{6} Loving my family

{7} building good relationships with people i meet

{8} MOST IMPORTANTLY bringing people to Christ !!

8 things I say or do too often...

{1} Being online

{2}Listening to music

{3} talking about my past, ( good and bad times )

{4} Shopping

{5} serious ...?

{6} gosh

{7} take care

{8} what the heck ?

8 things I've read recently

<1> Five people you meet in Heaven

<2> Tuesday with Morris

<3> Star Newspaper

<4> Judicial Precedent

<5> Archie Comics

<6> Absolute Boyfriend ( japanese Manga)

<7> The Constant Princess

<8> I kiss Dating goodbye

8 songs I could listen over and over again..

{1} Is it you? Cassie

{2} I'd rather be in love . Michelle Branch

{3} One last breath . Creed

{4} Tired of being sorry. Enrique Iglesias

{5} I remember . Keyshia Cole

{6}Yesterday. Leona Lewis

{7} Collide. Howie day

{8} Tonight. FM static

8 things I learned last year...

{1} how to cope with different kinds of housemates

{2} Living Indepedently

{3} Speak in tongues

{4} my relationship with my mum especially is important

{5} how to cope with feelings ( loneliness, craving for someone )

{6} how to take a bus ( public transport ) LOL

{7} more about myself , big confrontations which some friends told

{8}how racist some australians are

8 people to tag...

{1} Divya

{2} Yuyi

{3} Carmen Khong

{4} Carmen Tan

{5} Gabriel

{6}Jonathan Lin

{7} Wilson

{8} anyone else who is on my restrictive reading list who blogs

yesterday

2008-05-12T15:56:00.000+08:00

I just cant believe your gone
Still waitin for mornin to come
When I see if the sun will rise, in the way that your by my side
Well we got so much in store
Tell me what is it im reaching for
When were through building memories ill hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds, or least where the story goes
I never believed untill now
I know il see you again im sure
No its not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day one more smile on your face
But they cant take yesterday
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
I thought our days would last forever
But it wasnt our destiny
Cause in my mind we had so much time, but I was so wrong
No I can believe that
I can still find the strengh in the moments we made
Im lookin back on yesterday

this beaultiful lyrics by Leona Lewis ...guess i have been thinking a lot about one significant person and thats a secret i will never tell ... don't ask me about it please cause i dont want to talk about it .. it is a really sensitive issue and i don't want to create and heated / chaos discussions about this topic... its way out of the league to be discussed. i really need to satisfy that vunerability cause if not ill be shred to pieces ... guess thats all i have to say

oxox

is it you ?

2008-05-11T23:41:00.001+08:00

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one
I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? (Could you be?)
Could you be the one I need?
I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's hardest right
And I'm looking for someone
And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Want to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be this one I need?
Take for grant How much I care
(How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?
Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me? Could you be the one I need?

this song somehow makes a lot of sense right now ... go figure

traditional thinking ?

2008-05-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

hmmm been thinking about this subject i mean about technology progress ... why cant our thinking progress too... there is still this taboo thing about meeting people off the internet ... ( finding mates , or just friends )

Yes there is that factor that there is danger and some risks that shouldnt be taken. there is a lot of sex predators prowling over the internet. at the same time you occassionally will be lucky . in past experienced one of my boyfriends i met on the internet and we met up three times in our relationship since it was long distance . ( although it was in midst of malaysia ) . i broke up with him anywayz since he turned out to be an ego freak. somehow you will just be a different person on the internet where you can potray yourself to be better. guess thats where that feaar comes from meeting a "totally different " person

i wish asian societies arent so closed minded. i mean in the same wavelength it can be accounted for the way they talk about people too. the amount of gossips and what they find to talk about people is just ridiculous. judgemental is another factor which contributes to this behaviour as well.

there is so many issues in entering a relationship i mean like .. theres got to be status and then there is the religion factor.then racial issues ( especially in my family ) ...